Wednesday, January 07, 2009

Project 365: Days 6 & 7

Today's photo is as close as I could get to the wildfires near Boulder (not as close as the Deac, who is there helping to fighting the largest one even as I type this):
I chose that one as my photo of the day, but it was a toss-up between that one and one I took earlier (before sunset) on my drive home:
Yesterday found me having a hard time getting inspired to find something to photograph. Finally, I settled for this one:
This photo is only slightly better than the first one I had thought to use (a photo of the logo/box in which arrived our calzones for dinner), but it will do. The Deac got a new book and kept insisting on reading passages to me. I'm pretty sure Ann Coulter is on his "List" (remember that "Friends" episode?)

Monday, January 05, 2009

Project 365: Day 5

In today's photo, Maura watches from the sidelines as her sister demonstrates a roundhouse kick to Sensei and the rest of her karate class. Next week Maura is starting karate herself, so this might be the last time she's on the sidelines for a while.

In other news, please keep my friend Michele in your prayers. She found a breast lump just 12 days ago, on Christmas day and has since been diagnosed with cancer in 2 spots. Surgery (radical mastectomy) tomorrow. Do your self-exams!

Sunday, January 04, 2009

Project 365: Day 4

It was difficult to find a photo for today. Not because we didn't do anything photo-worthy. I think everything is photo-worthy at some level. But, because I didn't really like any of the photos I took. At the end of the day I had it narrowed down to 3 photos - one of Emmelia writing a thank-you note for Christmas, one of the stuffed bell peppers we had for dinner, and this one (which is obviously the one I decided to go with):
Because today, as we do most weekend days, we cleaned up and organized the house a bit and enlisted the help of our iRobot Roomba in the kitchen.

Saturday, January 03, 2009

Today we took the girls to Pizza Hut for lunch and redeemed two of Emmelia's free pizza coupons for the "Book It!" program she participates in through school. If you read 20 books in a month, you get a coupon for a free personal pan pizza. The girls both chose sausage for their topping and the Deac and I tried the new "natural' pizza with a multigrain crust - not bad, for Pizza Hut pizza.

Friday, January 02, 2009

2009 Project 365

Wow, it's been nearly a year. I have decided to participate in Project 365 this year - the idea is to take one photo per day for a whole year (related to this project, one could do Project 52 and take one photo per week). It's supposed to help you get more in tune with your camera and develop better photography and life-documenting skills. I'm excited about it and needed someplace to share my photos. This is as good a spot as any, I think!

Here's my photo for today:
I had today off and took the kids to daycare so I could enjoy some kid-free time. I decided to go see a non-animated movie to myself! One of the thoughts I had for this project was to take my camera with me to the movie theatre to see "The Curious Case of Benjamin Button" - and take a photo of the movie poster or the popcorn or something else movie-related. But, I forgot my camera and I also think businesses frown upon people taking photos like that. Then it came to me - the fun collection of buttons my mother put together and gave the kids for Christmas - perfect for both remembering the movie and documenting a fun Christmas memory.

And here is my first photo for the year, documenting the new webcam I purchased and set-up and used to make my first video IM to a friend:
It's not the greatest photo, but I am looking at this more as an exercise in life documentation. If my photography skills get better in the process, then that is a nice side effect.

I hope you enjoy the photos this year!

Tuesday, March 04, 2008

Where to find me

In the meantime, feel free to follow my scrapping layouts from my Photobucket account.

and, of course, I'll put new photos up in my Flickr account periodically.

Blog Break!

As you've probably already figured out, this blog is on a bit of a break. This time of year I usually slow down a bit and have to deal with spiritual and emotional fatigue. Anyway, so blogging hasn't been high on my list of priorities.

We're as busy as ever, with ice skating lessons, violin (recital this coming weekend!), and soccer starting this week. I should probably add physical fatigue to the list above.

When I first started this blog, it was to explore and discuss spiritual issues I was struggling with at the time. But, I never really felt that comfortable putting my thoughts in these intimate (to me at least) issues out on the internet for all to see. So then it became a sort of "here's what the family is up to" sort of newsy blog which seems a little pretentious (and boring!). I could use it as a scrapping blog, but when I'm tired, I don't even do that much scrapping. One of these days, I'd like to start a separate blog just for scrapping layouts and include other people who use the GIMP to scrap, as well (GimpScraps or something like that). I'll probably be scrapping more now that spring is here - especially since I got a guest CT spot with Vicki Stegall at Oscraps!

One of the excellent books I got for Christmas had the idea of keeping a daily photo journal - just one or two photos per day that you journal a little about. That could be a cool way to use the blog, but I need more energy first.

So, all this to say that I'm still chugging along, but won't be posting on the blog again until I figure out where I want it to go and find the time and energy to do it. If you have ideas for what you'd like to see here, please feel free to leave me a comment and let me know!

In the meantime, as we begin Great Lent I'd like to ask everyone's forgiveness for any offense I may have given. May God forgive us all.

Wednesday, January 30, 2008

I'm here, I'm here!

I haven't forgotten the blog. I've just been SWAMPED with life lately. I'll get back to it one of these days.

Meanwhile, after my birthday yesterday, I find myself quoting Monty Python: "I'm 37, I'm not OLD!"

Take care and I'll try to come up with something blog-worthy soon. In the meantime, you can keep up with my adventures by clicking on the Flickr badge in the margin.

Friday, December 07, 2007

December already?

It's been a busy fall and early winter here... We have seen Santa once this year so far - he was dressed in his CU Buffs fan outfit at the special Alumni visit to the Zoo Lights at Denver Zoo. He gave each of the girls a little stuffed Ralphie buffalo to keep. We'll see him again in his red suit when he arrives at the local fire station on December 15th. The girls have written notes to remind themselves what to ask for when they see him again. Of course, my diligence in using TiVo to record kid shows and minimize commercial viewing has come back to bite me in the form of the girls wanting really arcane things from Santa... Maura wants "glass slippers like Cinderella" and Emmelia wants a "Princess ice cream maker." Santa's probably getting carpal tunnel syndrome from using Google so much.

Yesterday, St. Nicholas paid a visit to our home and left a few treats in our shoes. That means it's time for us to decorate for Christmas! Tomorrow the tree will be going up. Yeay!

Last night Maura wrote her name for the first time! I'd show you a photo, but I'm still having issues with the photo uploader for some reason.

Next week, we'll be taking delivery of my new vehicle - a 2008 Toyota Highlander in Cypress Green - I can't wait! I'm very excited about the 3rd row seat and having the passenger capacity and fuel economy of a minivan without having to succumb to becoming a "soccer mom."

I have been absolutely swamped lately and haven't had the time to scrap that I'd like. But here are a couple of layouts I've made since my last post here.

Cauldron credits:
Paradise credits:
All I Want credits:
ZooLights credits:
The Deac wants me to design our Christmas card this year like the Zoo Lights layout above. I'm not sure how I feel about a black Christmas card. We'll see what I come up with if I can ever find some time.

Hope everyone continues to have a wonderful Nativity fast/Advent as we look forward to celebrating the birth of our Lord and Savior!

Friday, November 16, 2007

Need to get scrappin'

I need to get back to scrapping. All I managed this week was this LO of the girls playing in the leaves with a friend of theirs. I have so many photos from this year yet to scrap before the new year arrives! Not to mention that I should probably get started on a brag book for Christmas if I'm going to do that this year.

Well, here are the credits for Fall Leaves:

Thursday, November 15, 2007

Long time since my last post

We made it back from vacation safely a week ago. It was a fun trip, but exhausting in many ways. The time at Disney was truly magical and I'm glad we did that at the beginning of the trip so we could relax a bit on Sanibel Island before we came home. Disney is fun and magical and all that, but TIRING - especially with 2 young kids. The days when we went to a park for the morning, went back to the hotel for a nap and returned to the park in the evening worked best. It's hard to force yourself to do that, though.

I took over 500 photos on our vacation, most of which turned out well and are in my Flickr account if you'd like to see them. We all agreed Halloween is a fun time to visit Disney. The Halloween parade was awesome. The girls went on many, many rides and both went on all the roller coasters they were tall enough to ride (except Splash Mountain - Emmelia decided not to go on that one because she didn't want to get wet). Emmelia's 6th birthday was fun - she got a special button to wear that clued the Cast Members to wish her a happy birthday and give her special things - one Cast Member even called "Goofy" on his "cell phone" to sing "Happy Birthday" to her. At 11 pm on her birthday, she went on Space Mountain for the first time and LOVED it! Too bad the park was closing for our last day there, or she definitely would've gone again. Next time...

For her birthday, I gave her a copy of "Now We Are Six" by A.A. Milne. I remember when I was five, I could hardly wait to turn 6 so I could read it (hee). Emmelia is quickly learning to read, but not quite up to reading the poems on her own. She is enjoying them when we read them to her. The Deac got her a pretty pink princess crown necklace with a mickey head on it. She also picked out a Minnie Mouse alarm clock that we bought for her. Princess Aurora left a personalized card for her in our room that was a fun surprise. All in all, a good birthday.

After we got back, I got sick. I spent 2 days in bed with headache, nausea, fever and muscle aches. I figured it was a virus or just exhaustion from our trip. The next day, however, I got a horrible sore throat and figured it was strep. Apparently this is going around. The good news is, antibiotics really helped and I'm feeling much, much better today.

The Deac has switched back to the day shift for now. He is going to have to go to California again for more training at some point, but that's not so bad - he had a good time last time he went. It's nice having him around in the evenings. We get to do things like visit our newest Orthodox mission in Colorado on their Patronal Feast Day (that was Tuesday night) and play Munchkin with friends (last night).

Tonight's plans include making corn bread for the Thanksgiving feast in Emmelia's kindergarten classroom tomorrow, doing her homework, and playing on WebKinz (Emmelia got one from her Aunt when we were in Florida). Have a good evening!

Monday, October 29, 2007

Quick one!

We are mostly packed and ready to leave for the Magic Kingdom and its environs. The girls are SO excited (as are we!).

But, I had to post just to brag about how wonderfully Emmelia did at her recital this weekend. She played her first solo - a variation (Variation A, for Suzuki-ites out there) on "Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star). She did it perfectly! And she didn't seem nervous at all. I'm so proud of the progress she is making! There's a photo of her playing in my Flickr account (I can't get blogger to load images today, for some reason).

See you in November!

Thursday, October 25, 2007

What I've been doing since last I blogged

Life just gets busy sometimes, you know? Here's what I've been up to since my October 5th post:

- The Deac and I became Godparents to little Abraham Joseph. The ceremony was lovely and he was very sweet and cuddly through most of it. The next day he was churched and I took him to Holy Communion for the first time. There are photos in my Flickr account if you'd like to go see. At the last minute, I decided to make little favors for the guests at the baptism out of tulle circles and Jordan almonds. They were closed with thin blue ribbon and a cross charm. I think they came out cute and were super easy to make!

- The girls played soccer. I coached Maura's team. The season is nearly done! Our last game is Saturday. It's actually been a lot of fun, but I don't think I'm going to sign up to coach in the spring. I might consider doing it again in the fall. The girls' soccer photos came out really cute.

- We played several games of Munchkin with our Munchkin-loving friends. We've also spent some fun non-Munchkin time with our non-Munchkin-loving friends.

- I attended a workshop for parents of Suzuki musicians. It was very helpful and encouraging and included loads of ideas for motivating kids to practice and develop a love for music.

- I played on Facebook some. It's fun to get in touch with friends and family I haven't seen or heard from in a while.

- I set up a plan for our evenings and mornings that is helping things get done in a less chaotic manner and we have a new routine that includes all the things we used to forget to do in the rush to get the kids either to bed or out the door in the morning. Now, they get a bath, brush teeth and hair, practice violin, clean up, pick out clothes for next day, get read to, say prayers, every night! And lunches get put together the night before so I'm not consistently late for work every morning.

- The Deac switched to his evening schedule. He now works from 2 pm to midnight 4 days a week. We are all still adjusting, but so far it doesn't seem too bad. He now drops the kids off at daycare in the mornings and gets to spend some time with them then.

- Maura's Godparents got back from their trip to Greece and brought her a cute wooden Pinocchio doll (complete with exchangeable noses!)

- We had our Parent-Teacher conference with Emmelia's kindergarten teacher. She is doing REALLY WELL in Kindergarten. The teacher evaluated each child for verbal ability and expected each one to score a 30 or less.... Emmelia scored a 76.

- Emmelia continued doing karate and got her yellow-striped belt. She's now learning the 20 forms, that has some long Japanese name I can't pronounce (but Emmelia can, at least she comes close).

- Both girls have continued in their Suzuki violin lessons. Maura is, unsurprisingly since she's been exposed at home for 2 years, picking things up really quickly. Emmelia is making strides now that we are practicing more regularly. She is playing her first solo - a variation on Twinkle, Twinkle, Little Star - this weekend at a recital. Her arms are growing and I need to order her a 1/8-size violin.

- Emmelia went on a field trip to a pumpkin farm with her kindergarten class and and friend and I also took the girls to another pumpkin farm last weekend (photos in Flickr).

- My Mom had her annual Art Show at her studio. There are links in my sidebar, so please check them out!

- I had my annual physical for work and am generally healthy. Yeay!

- I volunteered in Emmelia's classroom and listened to kids read and helped with art projects.

- I helped organize and attended a meeting of the local chapter of the Health Physics Society. Tomorrow I'm going to a talk on a radiation incident that happened in Brazil 20 years ago up at CSU.

- I took the girls to the Fall Carnival at Emmelia's elementary school. They had a great time (photos in my Flickr account).

- It snowed, briefly, last weekend. But still, first snow! Maura wanted to make snow angels and was disappointed that she couldn't.

- I helped the girls decorate pumpkins with their "Potato Head" decorations (you guessed it, photos in Flickr account)

- I haven't scrapped much, but did make 3 layouts:
Simply FamilyGrape PickingDecorating Pumpkins (06)- My friend Amy (Doodleboogs at SOTB) decided to stop designing, so I guess I'm back down to 2 CTs. It has been a ton of fun working with Amy and now I'm looking forward to seeing some scrapping from her since she'll have more time on her hands!

- We are preparing for our Disney trip next week and getting really excited for it! I doubt I'll be blogging again until after we're back - so see you next month! Have a safe and happy Halloween!

Friday, October 05, 2007

Another busy week!

Wow, this week flew by! Emmelia had her belt test on Monday evening and she amazed us with how much she's learned and how focused she was. She earned her yellow-and-white striped belt and we are so proud of her for putting forth the effort!

Of course we had our usual hectic schedule including karate class, violin lesson and soccer practice. We also visited with friends a couple evenings this week. Suffice it to say that I'm looking forward to a quiet evening at home to rest, do some laundry, get the kids to bed at a decent hour, and watch Roomba clean my floors.

Last Saturday, while helping Emmelia warm up for her soccer game, I had to jog a little to catch the ball. I was pleasantly surprised to find that when I did this there was no ankle pain like I've had since my tendon release surgery! I was (and still am!) so excited about that discovery! And this week I started exercising again. I'm taking it slow, because my physical activity has been very limited since the surgery last December. But, I'm proud to say that I exercised every day this week - a big accomplishment for me! Every morning, I did a 10-minute segment of my Pilates DVD. On Monday, Wednesday and Friday, I walk/jogged along with a podcast of the Couch-to-5K running plan. On Tuesdays and Thursdays, I lifted weights. And... it's amazing how much better I feel. I've already noticed an increase in energy level and a decrease in appetite. Combining that with being very good about sticking to a low-carb diet, I've lost a few pounds already as well. So I'm very excited to keep this going and glad my ankle doesn't hurt anymore.

I didn't have a lot of time to scrap this week, but I did put together this LO of Maura that I took in August. I just love how the background paper goes with the photo. Here are the credits:
This week we managed to get all the stuff picked and ordered for the baptism next Saturday. After MUCH looking, we found the perfect baptismal outfit and baptismal cross for little Abe. The Deac and I also got him an icon of his patron saint, St. Joseph of Damascus. I'm really looking forward to becoming Abe's godmother!

Well, it's nearly time to go get the girls. Hope you all have a wonderful weekend! It's supposed to get cold here... I guess it's finally fall. I am hoping to get the supplies for a knitting project this weekend - seems like perfect knitting weather. Maybe I'll have some time to curl up and read a few more chapters of this month's book club book. I was hesitant about reading this book, but it turns out it's written by the author who wrote Everything Is Illuminated. I enjoyed that movie, and so far I'm enjoying the book, too (but I'm only a couple chapters into it).

Monday, October 01, 2007

Roomba, Hair, Violin... the times of our life

Wowzer, we had a busy weekend! On Friday, a new member of our family arrived.... actually, it's a new toy but it's so much fun and hard not to anthropomorphize. It's a Roomba vacuum - and I love it! Here's a photo of it's maiden voyage around our kitchen:
It is just so cute and fun! And it makes little happy noises... you'll understand when you have one. On the plastic covering the main unit, there was a little blurb about feeling free to modify the software of the Roomba - that it doesn't void the warranty. I thought this was odd, so looked around a bit online. Apparently there are people who don't think Roombas should be limited to vacuuming and they "hack" their units. Interesting.

We didn't get to play with it until Saturday because not only did it have to charge, but we had a lovely dinner with friends. They asked us if we would serve as Godparents for their month-old son. What an honor! I've never been asked to be a Godparent before. I am so excited and hope I make a good Godmother. The baptism will be in a couple of weeks. There's a lot to do before then! I need to get candles, a cross, a white towel... and a few other things including a christening outfit of some sort that the parents like. I would love to sew one for him, but I doubt I'll have the time in only 2 weeks. Oh, and we need to make sure we can recite the Nicene Creed by heart by then...

On Saturday, we had soccer, then went to get our hair cut at our regular Salon. We've been going to the same place for our entire marriage, and the Deac has had his hair cut by the same person for the past 21+ years! The two women who own the salon are splitting up their business and so this was our last time going there. Then we had dinner with friends and played a couple rounds of Munchkin. Love that game.

Sunday after church, Emmelia played in a recital put on by all the Suzuki String studios in our town. It was a beautiful day for an outdoor concert and was just lovely to sit around and listen to violins, violas and cellos being played by all different age groups for a couple of hours. The concert/recital was held in the yard of an old house in the middle of town that is now owned by the city and rented out for events such as this. We toured the house a bit and it was lovely. Both girls said they'd like to live there. Hee! I took a few photos of the kids around the grounds that are in my Flickr account if you want to take a look. I was doubly proud of Emmelia at the recital because as she got up to play, she realized her shoulder rest had fallen off her violin! It was *somewhere* on the grounds, but we didn't know where (we later found it under a chair). She soldiered on and played anyway and did a great job (but that's why her posture is a tad unnatural-looking)! Here's some photos of her and the pre-twinkler group:
And here's one of both girls on a bench after the recital. Unfortunately the light was turning into hard afternoon light by that time, otherwise it could've been a great photo. This is the last recital Maura won't be in, I think - even next time she'll at least get up with the group and move her bow to the rhythm.
And, last but not least, here are some scrap layouts I made last week. I am trying to finish scrapping our 2005 Disney trip before we leave for our next one at the end of this month! I've been using a lot of items by Christine Beasley from her series of freebies called "Dream Trip." You can still download them from her blog (check the archives). Click on the layout title to see credits.

Disney 2005:
Cinderella-bration:
Disney Snacks:
Life looks like it might slow to a reasonable rate this week (yeay!). Not much is going on besides Emmelia testing for her yellow-striped belt in karate tonight. Hope everyone has a great week!

Friday, September 21, 2007

TMBG!

Wow, it's been two weeks since I posted! Life's been busy.

Mainly, the Deac went to California for work-related training for nearly two weeks. So life as a solo parent has bogged me down. I also had a lot to do at work, so didn't get online much. The Deac, although he would've preferred not being gone so long, learned a lot at his training and had some fun, too. Several of our friends over the years have ended up in the Bay area, and he was able to get together with all of them during his trip. He also visited a couple of fire stations, which of course he got a kick out of. I sent the point-n-shoot digital camera with him... and he used it. Last Sunday, he called me and said he'd taken a short video at the Monterey Bay Aquarium and decided he didn't want it and went to delete it from the memory card.... you can see where this is going. When it asked if he wanted to delete current frame only or delete all frames, he thought that since it was a video, it was made up of more than one frame.... only that's what the camera calls all its digital images. So, long story short, there are a FEW photos from Monterey Bay and our friends Tom and Shannon in my flickr account. ;-)

By the way - Happy 25th birthday to the Smiley (emoticon) this week! On the same day as that anniversary, we had a little fun around here with National Talk Like a Pirate Day. I am anxiously awaiting the release of the next game in the Munchkin series: Munchkin Booty. Speaking of Munchkin, even with the Deac gone, our group of friends got together a few times to play. Our last game combined three separate game sets - Star Munchkin, Munchkin Fu and Munchkin Bites. It was a lot of fun and, surprisingly, went faster than a regular game of Munchkin!

Last night, the Deac and I went with friends to see one of our favorite groups - They Might Be Giants! They were playing at the Boulder Theatre and the show was AWESOME! Although I might be getting a little old for staying up until 1 am, standing and dancing for hours (I admit it - I'm really tired today and my legs hurt!). At least we decided to be in the non-drinking section, which I think made the show even more enjoyable. We had an excellent view of the stage and were as close as we could be without being in "the pit" - so only about 20 feet or so from the stage and up a little higher so I could see over all those heads! We were so happy to be able to go and in the process, we even found a new and reliable babysitter that the kids love. So, a win-win all around. Unfortunately, the Deac talked me out of taking my camera since most concerts don't allow them (they were actually all around - oh well). I did try to snap a couple of shots with my camera phone, but the resolution is horrible. Here's the best one:
I'm still going to try to scrap it. We also came home with an autographed vinyl record of their new album and a concert t-shirt.

Speaking of scrapping, here are a couple of layouts I made in the last week. Click on the titles here to see credits for Tea Party and Diva. The blue "Diva" one is really just a Quick Page that I added a few elements to and dressed up a bit. I love doing that.
It's nice to have a stash again - I'm slowly re-building it with freebies and goodies around the web these days.

Last, but not least, soccer season is in full-swing. My team of little munchkins had their first game last Saturday. Everyone did a great job - I had at least 3-4 kids out of 5 willing to play the whole time - that's really very good for 3-year-olds! I'm hoping tomorrow's game will go as well. I handed my camera to one of the other Mom's and asked her to take pictures last week. Here's one she captured (that's our team in the red. We were supposed to be blue, but the other team was confused):
Tomorrow will be odd schedule-wise, because Emmelia's game is at 9, and Maura's (the one I will be coaching) isn't until noon. Plus, it's picture day, so we have to be there at 8:30 for Emmelia and stay late after Maura's game. I'm glad the Deac is back so we can split up a little bit! Have a great weekend!

Edited to add - three more layouts I never got around to posting! Wow. Here you go! Feel free to comment and let me know what you think.

Emmelia, using Christine Beasley's new Opulence kit:
Treasured Friends:
Karate, using Doodleboogs' wonderful new Rotten Tomatoes kit (speaking of which - Emmelia has earned SIX stripes now and will be testing for her 2nd belt in another week!):

Friday, September 07, 2007

Back safe

We did make it back safely from our road trip to Sioux City. We took Friday and Tuesday off work and school and made the 10-hour each way trip out to visit our friends who are also Emmelia's Godparents. We had a wonderful time visiting with them for 3 days. We went to the Sioux City Art Splash, liturgy, and the mall. We got a babysitter one night (best idea the Deac's ever had) so we adults could go out for dinner and eat, drink, and be merry without constant interruption or meltdowns. It was bliss. We watched a really good movie called Everything Is Illuminated. We cooked out for Labor Day and ate well the entire time, thanks to the culinary genius of Emmelia's Godmother. The Deac got a cool Romanian hat to wear with his cassock and jibbee. Here is Maura modeling it (she looks good in black - I think the nun's habit will agree with her):

On the way back, we stopped at not one, but TWO Cabela's stores. Oh, a funny story on the way there... as we were driving between Omaha and Sioux City, a crane suddenly flew up from under a bridge and nearly collided with our windshield. We were seriously frightened for our lives for a second, before lapsing into exclamations of "Wow - was that a CRANE? How cool!". As we turned the bend in the road, there was a giant billboard in a field that read "Prepare to Meet Thy God." Ha, ha, ha! Maybe you had to be there, but it was pretty funny.

So this week we've been trying to catch up on sleep, get back into our routine and launch ourselves into fall. Emmelia got another stripe at karate and is only 2 stripes away from being able to test for her yellow striped (white stripe on yellow) belt. She is doing really, really well with violin and soccer, too. She's really matured in the past year.

Yesterday was our first practice for Maura's soccer team. I was very apprehensive all day, but it turned out well. The kids are a lot of fun and listen surprisingly well for 3-year-olds. I though their attention spans for games and drills would be about 4-5 minutes, but I was wrong - it was more like 3 minutes. But that's okay. We played lots of games with the ball, including Simon Says, Red Light Green Light, and Feed the Dragons. We have one more practice and then we'll have our first game! Emmelia's first game is tomorrow morning. Suddenly, I find myself a soccer mom minus the minivan....

Anyway, I think I would've gotten more done this week if I hadn't discovered Facebook. If you are on there and want to friend me, send me an e-mail.

I did manage to scrap today. I need to scrap for Amy and Seebee's CTs, but am not sure I'll have time to do another LO today. I just really HAD to scrap this photo with this kit, if you know what I mean. Here's credits for Dinosaur Rest Stop:
Today I read that one of my favorite authors of all time has died: Madeleine L'Engle. I have always loved her books and her way of looking at the world, both physical and spiritual. May her memory be eternal! She died on the 20th anniversary of my baptism. That somehow seems significant, as does the fact that the book I am now reading the kids at bedtime is "A Wrinkle in Time". She really was an awesome author.

Thursday, August 30, 2007

Welcome to the world!

Welcome to the world, little Abraham (you'll have to trust me that he's a cutie - the photo doesn't want to load, so I removed it)! And congratulations to our friends Fr. Matthew and Rachel. I was so honored to be included in the support party Rachel put together for her birth. She called me at about 2:30 in the morning on Tuesday and I was at the hospital by 3. Rachel did an AWESOME job handling the contractions and laboring and little Abe was born at 5:30 am. Birth is an amazing and miraculous event. In many religious traditions, giving birth is even recognized as a time in our life when we come closest to God - the mother (and father) participate with God in the creation of a new life. I am so happy I could be there to see it and support Rachel in having the natural birth she wanted. It was fun to get to play with my camera to photograph him, too. We wish Fr. Matthew, Rachel and their two wonderful boys MANY YEARS!

It took me a couple of days to rest up from that event, but I've still had a pretty busy week. Yesterday I volunteered in Emmelia's kindergarten classroom and had a blast helping the teacher and making art projects with the kids. It was nice to learn names and get to know some of the kids she's going to be in school with for at least the next 6 years.

We're heading out soon to visit Emmelia's Godparents. We are all really excited to see each other again - it's been too long since we've been able to just have a visit without a major life event going on at the same time. It's going to be the longest drive we've ever taken with the kids, but hopefully they'll sleep through much of it.

Here's a LO I did today, even though I'm still recovering from the loss of my "stash" of scrapping goodies. Credits for Wildflowers are here.
Last night while we were doing laundry in our AWESOME new washing machine, we watched the movie Ostrov again. It is a really wonderful movie about a Russian holy man ("staretz"). It's a Russian film, but has English sub-titles. I highly recommend it!

Well, best be off to pick Emmelia up from her first soccer practice and start packing! Have a wonderful weekend!

Monday, August 27, 2007

Easy come, easy go

I changed my settings to no longer allow anonymous comments. While I love getting comments on my posts, I've found that anonymous ones stress me out unduly. So now you have to sign into your Blogger account to leave me a comment, but I hope you will take the time to do that, because I like hearing from you.

Last night our washing machine kicked the bucket. It was one of the original Maytag Neptune front-loaders. Yes, the one with all the complaints and the class action lawsuit. We seem to have gotten a couple more years out of ours than most people, so I guess we can't complain too much. I just didn't want to have to spend so much time today researching washing machines and finding a suitable replacement. We ended up going with another front loader (I'm never going back to a top-loading machine) that is pretty much the same model (slightly fewer temperature settings and spin RPM) as one of the Consumer Reports top-rated machines. And not only did Lowe's have EXCELLENT customer service, but they can get the machine to us tomorrow morning for a cheaper price than anyone around. I'm very impressed with Lowe's today. Not so much with Maytag. Here is a photo of our new washer:
The Deac also called and asked (I didn't even think to ask this when I called and ordered it) if it will be going on sale for Labor Day and it is! That means we get an extra 10% because of Lowe's 30-day price-match guarantee. And because it's an energy efficient unit, we get a $50 rebate from the City. So, all-in-all, a good deal for an unexpected expenditure of funds.

Emmelia is doing wonderfully in kindergarten - she really loves it and seems to be more mature already. I am volunteering in her classroom on Wednesday and I'm looking forward to meeting her classmates and seeing how they all interrelate. Karate went well today. Since last week, she's talked a lot on her own about doing a better job with focusing and paying attention. Even though she was tired today, she did a great job at both of those. Sensei told her she would earn a stripe if she'd participate more in class - volunteer to show him what she knows, instead of waiting until the group does it. I am kind of in awe of how he gets kids to be focused and motivated. He's a good read of how children operate.

Maura had her first full day of Preschool today. Last week they transitioned from the Toddler II room into Preschool by spending an increasing number of hours there each day. Today was the first day she was completely in Preschool and not in Toddler II. We've been talking for a while now about giving up her pacifier when she goes to Preschool. She didn't seem to really want to do it, though, so I haven't pushed it. This morning when I was dropping her off, she took her pacifier out of her mouth and insisted on taking it and giving it to her Toddler II teacher before gong back to the Preschool room. We were both sort of amazed that she'd come up with this on her own... This evening, she never asked for it, even when going to sleep. We'll see what happens in coming days - I'll be interested to see if she really has decided she's outgrown the plug or not.

We had a good weekend until the washer died. There will be a few photos of the weekend in my Flickr account soon, I hope. We didn't get the things done around the house that we needed to, but we visited with friends and relaxed a bit. Friday I took the girls to a local end-of-summer festival. It was less fun than we hoped. On Saturday we went to a co-workers house in the mountains to help her celebrate her newly-earned Master's degree. It was a lovely day for spending time relaxing in the mountains. That evening we had a cook-out with a few other friends and played a different variant of our favorite game, Munchkin Fu. It was a blast! Yesterday we invited some folks over for dinner as they are about to have a baby and their time for socializing will be gone for a while. It was good to see them. I'm invited to the birth when it happens and I'm excited to go. It will be my 4th or 5th birth, not counting my own two. She is so ready to have this baby! He should make his debut in the next couple of weeks, for sure.

Friday, August 24, 2007

Bumming

Yesterday when I tried to connect my external hard drive, it made some strange knocking noises and wasn't recognized by the computer.... yep, it's toast. I know this sort of thing is nearly inevitable, happens all the time, etc. But I was still pretty cavalier about procrastinating any kind of back-up. {{sigh}}

Luckily, all my digital photos are backed up on our home computer and I will be burning the more recent ones that haven't been burnt to DVD yet VERY soon. Good thing I have Flickr to archive photos, too. BUT - ALL my digiscrap stuff is gone, as are my 3 most recent layouts. One you didn't even get to see yet - my layout about Emmelia's first day of kindergarten. I did upload it to the galleries, so I guess you can see it here. But those 3 will never be printed out for the girls' albums.

I guess I'll just begin again to re-build my "stash" from what is out there now. I actually don't feel overwhelmingly upset about it. There's a certain resignation one has at events like this. Not much I can do about it - should've backed up, but didn't. At least the drive is under warranty.

Anyway...

On Wednesday it finally happened - something I've been expecting for a while and wondering how it would be taken. Emmelia's friend Rebecca, who started karate with her, got a stripe on her belt and Emmelia didn't. I know it's because Emmelia was horsing around in class, not paying attention to Sensei or listening, talking loudly. She was really a pill - she always gets that way when she's tired and this first week of school has been tough on her. So, after class, she immediately came over to discuss the unfairness of R. having 3 stripes while she only has 2. She said what I expected her to say: "I don't want to do karate anymore." Sigh. WHY is my child so competitive? I really try not to instill an overly competitive nature in the girls, but they seem to be genetically predestined to it. It will cause them endless hassle as they grow up. Anyway, we talked a bit about how she can still earn a stripe by listening better and paying attention, etc. Then, on the way home, Emmelia changed her tactic on it - she decided she wanted me to sign her up for karate class EVERY DAY - so she could have ALL the stripes. Sigh... at least she does enjoy it.

I got some great photos of the class on Wednesday. You can look at them over in my Flickr account, but here's one of Emmelia and Rebecca practicing step-punches with Sensei.

Emmelia is really loving kindergarten so far. Like I said, it's exhausting for her, but a lot of that is no longer getting naps. Today she took an apple in for her teacher. ;-)

Hope you all have a wonderful weekend! Ours is blissfully not-too-busy. Just a couple of things on the schedule, so that is nice. I might actually have time to do some laundry!

Tuesday, August 21, 2007

My baby started kindergarten!

Yesterday was her first day and she did great! She was a little nervous beforehand, but both the Deac and I came along to drop her off. The teacher let us stay for a few minutes and by the time we left she was playing happily. There were a lot of other parents there and even though we were *technically* the last ones out the door, we weren't clingy or anything. She went with half her class yesterday and the other half went today (so she go the day off) and everyday classes with everyone begin tomorrow. This week Maura is also transitioning to the Preschool room at daycare. She is MORE than ready for this move and has been anticipating it for quite a while. Here's my two beans yesterday morning before I dropped them off:
Our family gathering this weekend was a lot of fun. It was great to see everyone and the girls had a blast playing with their cousins (first cousins, once removed) Kayla and Luke. I got a couple of fun shots with my camera:





















There are some other photos over in my flickr badge, too!

I went to a meeting for new soccer coaches last night and am excited to be coaching Maura's team. There really isn't much involved for the under-4 age group. The point is simply to help them have fun. Plus, I found out Maura's very bestest friend in the whole universe is going to be on her team! They are both excited about that.

Today is the first day this month for which nothing is written on our home calendar - no wonder we have been feeling exhausted with almost constant scheduling! We do have a few things to do tonight, but nothing too strenuous and it will be nice to spend time as a family.

Our Disney trip is all planned for this fall! Here's a basic breakdown of our itinerary:

Day 1 - we arrive in Orlando around 4:30 pm and will head to our Disney resort via shuttle. Dinner at Downtown Disney.

Day 2 - Animal Kingdom day just because of the way character dining worked out (but we have ParkHoppers, so we can always change our minds and go to more than one park in a day). That night, Halloween party at Magic Kingdom.

Day 3 - Magic Kingdom day. Breakfast at the Crystal Palace with Pooh and Friends. Dinner at Cinderella's Royal Table with the Fairy Godmother.

Day 4 - Epcot day. Lunch with the princesses at Akershus.

Day 5 - MGM Studios day. Breakfast at Playhouse Disney's Play-n-Dine with the Little Einsteins.

Day 6 - check out, get rental car and drive to Sanibel Island for the next 4 days before we fly home! It will be so fun and a much-needed vacation! We are all excited.

One last thing - I found a great resource today that I'm really excited about! I've been listening when I can to Ancient Faith Radio, but it turns out they have podcasts! One of them is a podcast of Orthodox children's books being read aloud. I know the kids will love this and subscribed immediately! I also subscribed to a couple others. Now to find the time to listen.... But I thought some of you might be interested in this as well. Happy listening!

Thursday, August 16, 2007

Last week of summer!

Whew! What a BUSY whirlwind the past two weeks have been! I thought about blogging often so I could catch up on events, but then I got sick with a sinus infection and laryngitis and just didn't have the energy. But I'll try to give a brief synopsis.

Last week our Bishop was in town. He is situated in Wichita, and his diocese covers many states here in the middle of the country. Since there are 7 Antiochian Orthodox parishes here in the northern Colorado area, he just comes for a week and visits each parish during that time. That makes it easier on him travel-wise, and cheaper for the parishes - they don't each have to pay for a flight and hotel, etc. The other nice benefit is that we get to go visit the other parishes when he is visiting. It was lovely - just to see people and clergy families from other parishes that we don't get to see that often. The fellowship and friendship was like a mini-retreat in a lot of ways. We all had a good time, even though it was busy!

Last week we found out that Emmelia HAS been accepted into the school we hoped for! We are SO excited about that. It is an awesome school and we'd managed to get our hearts set on it even before we heard, so we were very glad she gets to go. Kindergarten starts this coming Monday! So this week has been busy with getting final vaccinations, filling out enrollment forms, buying new clothes for school, etc.

The Deac started his new job this week, too and he LOVES it! He's like a pig in slop - he is really happy to work in a team environment with intelligent people and not have a long commute. We need to do a few things like figure out insurance and retirement plan stuff, but that shouldn't be too hard. So far, he is working a "normal" (daytime) work schedule. No word yet on when/if he will move to an evening schedule.

Emmelia got her second stripe in karate! She is really doing well in karate and is starting to do better in violin, too. It was a hard summer for violin - I think we were so busy that it was hard for her to stay focussed. Maura will start lessons with her in 2 weeks, and I think that will help. They will be able to practice with each other and hopefully be less distracting to each other. Yesterday I decided to volunteer to coach Maura's soccer team this fall. I know nothing about soccer, but the Youth Soccer Association is willing to train me, and this way Maura will have a team. They were really begging for coaches because they had a lot of interest. I think it will be fun to get out and kick the ball around with a bunch of 3-year-olds. Emmelia got assigned to the team we were hoping for, as well! Four out of the seven kids on her team all know each other from our La Leche League chapter and the coach is one of the local LLL leaders. I really think, if we can choose a mascot, that we should incorporate breastfeeding somehow - name the team after a mammal or something. Anyway, I was worried about the time commitment for coaching, but for the 3-year-olds, they only do a 30-minute practice (which is actually optional, but I think would be fun and doable) once a week, and play one 30-minute game on Saturdays. I figured I'd have to go to the practice and games anyway, you know?

We have our fall Disney trip all planned and paid for! We have a few reservations for character meals to plan, but in general we're set for a much-needed vacation. I can't wait! We haven't bought a new car yet because interest rates are so high! If we can find a lower rate, we might move quickly.

We saw my Mom last weekend for lunch when she was up this way to go to a sculpture show and this weekend we'll be going to a BBQ with family in the Colorado Springs area. I'm looking forward to seeing relatives we haven't seen since my Dad's funeral, and the girls are looking forward to playing with their 1st-cousins-once-removed. We are also getting ready for a road trip out to Iowa in a couple of weeks to visit Emmelia's godparents and their family. It will be really nice to see them, but the longest drive we've done since having kids.

I got a *little* bit of scrapping done in the midst of all this, but wish I could've managed more. There is so much to do at work that I haven't even had the routine breaks I'm used to that allow me to work on a layout. But here's the 2 I've done most recently:

Rebecca's 5th Birthday, using Christine Beasley's new "Date of Birth" kit:

And I love this new kit Amy came up with, called "Five Alarm" - I think I'll have several LOs to do with it once I find some time. I mean, these photos for the Firetruck LO have been waiting to be scrapped since 2005!

Friday, August 03, 2007

It's here!

And I love it! I can take real photos again! I haven't gotten to play with it a ton, but I took a few photos and you can look at them over in my Flickr badge if you want. How fun!

Please say a prayer for Fr. Nicholas, a friend of ours and local archpriest who suffered a massive heart attack on Wednesday. We visited last night and he seems to be doing better than the initial prognosis, but his condition is still critical.

We don't have much planned this weekend. The Bishop is visiting, so there will be many activities for that over the next week or so. I also would love to have a yard sale to help pay for our upcoming Disney trip and need to go through and organize stuff for that. It seems overwhelming, but would feel so good to get organized!

Hopefully I'll be able to play with the camera some with the girls this weekend, too. Have a good one!

Thursday, August 02, 2007

Checking in

I just wanted to check in quickly and share a couple of layouts I made this week. My new camera should arrive today (fingers crossed) - I can't wait to play with it!

Meanwhile, we are looking into finally getting a new car and replacing my 20 year old Volvo wagon that has 300,000 miles on it. It's been a great car, but it needs about $1,000 in work (which is about it's total value), and we've been putting off the car loan/payments. So, we may bite the bullet on that one soon.

We're also in the process of setting up the vacation to Florida we've been planning for this fall. I personally find the *planning* part to be overwhelming and stressful. I know we'll have a great time once it is set and we are there. But there are so many scheduling issues and costs to juggle right now that it's a bit hard to figure out. We are going to Walt Disney World and also spending some time with family on Sanibel Island. At Disney, we are going to do Mickey's Not-So-Scary Halloween party and some character meals. Other than that, we need to pin down details and get tickets!

Well, with no further ado, here are the layouts. The credits are here for CHP and 3rd Birthday. Leave me a comment and let me know what you think!

I did this one for the "Map of Me" challenge at SOTB that my friend Amy coordinates:

And, Chris Beasley came up with these cute "Code Words" so I did this LO and included those to get CT credit (but I also really like what it adds to the layout):

Friday, July 27, 2007

New LO and ::happy dance!::

The other night I was putting the kids to sleep and this layout popped into my head. So as soon as they were down, I got on the computer and put it together. I like the way it came out - very bright and sunny, just like that day was. Here are credits for Field Day.

And, today I got myself a little prize from my bonus money. I was going to get a laptop, but the Deac thinks he has a laptop around that we can refurbish pretty cheaply just to run Linux and the Gimp and the things I want a laptop for... so I didn't need to buy that. A tandem kayak would be nice, but chances are we aren't going to have a chance to get it in the water this year anyway... so - and this was the Deac's idea - he totally reminded me that I have been wanting a digital SLR camera for eons. Sure, I already have 2 film cameras and a point-and-shoot digital camera. Sigh. What's that question I've heard? How many *insert item of interest here* are enough? Answer: Just One More. That's why a brand new Nikon D40x with 2 lenses and a case (nice package deal) is on it's way to me even as we speak! I'm a bit intimidated by the learning curve, but also really excited!

Have a great weekend!

Wednesday, July 25, 2007

Hula Girl

I wasn't really planning on scrapping today... but then I got an e-mail about a kit being given away as a freebie today only at OScraps (here's the link - be sure to read the description, as it has a coupon code) and got inspired. So, I made this layout over my lunch hour. I think it came out pretty cute (of course, it's hard to go wrong when you have such cute material to work with - and I mean both the kit AND the photos). Credits are here.

I only scratched the surface of the fun goodies in this kit! I'm sure I'll use it over and over again. Well, off to pick up Emmelia from karate and take the kids to swimming lessons. Have a wonderful evening!

Tuesday, July 24, 2007

Campin' and Scrappin'

We had a great time camping this weekend. We drove up the Poudre canyon just west of Fort Collins until we got to State Forest State Park near Gould. I've lived in Colorado all my life and never been to this part of the state. It was so beautiful, I'm sure we'll go back again sometime. Our campsite was near North Michigan reservoir and we couldn't tell from the website if it would be a smallish reservoir or a big concrete/rock monstrosity. So, we were REALLY kicking ourselves when we got up there after deciding to leave the kayak home for this trip. It would've been *perfect* for kayaking. Sigh. Here's a photo I took from the shore. Those mountains in the back are actually in Rocky Mountain National Park.
In general, we enjoyed camping with the kids, but found it to be a much different experience than camping without them. For one thing, everytime we would start to sit down and enjoy the scenery, *someone* would be needing a potty break or having some other sort of kid-typical crisis. But that's okay. The kids enjoyed themselves, did GREAT the entire time (even on the long drive home - we decided to take the scenic route through Wyoming) and no one got hurt or eaten by bears. I was happy to have a chance this week to scrap our experience (credits here):
We were only out for one night and came home pretty exhausted. For our next trip, we *must* remember pillows and extra blankets or sleeping bags. It got pretty cold up there at 10,000 feet overnight.

On Sunday after liturgy we decided to stop by the Orthodox Food Festival at Holy Transfiguration Cathedral in Denver. We all had a wonderful time catching up with old friends and eating delicious Romanian food while watching ethnic dancers and musicians. The girls got their face painted, played games to win prizes, had balloon animals made and in general had a terrific time. I bought myself a hand-painted enamel pendant from Russia - sort of like this one (only prettier). Then we had friends over for dinner. All-in-all, a fun weekend.

I also completed two other layouts this week, deciding to get my CT duties out of the way at the beginning since I've been itching to scrap for so long. There is this one about an evening spent with a good friend of ours and his girlfriend:
And this one of Emmelia's adventures at soccer camp last week. I didn't feel that either of these layouts really required a lot of journaling, so I just stuck with the basic photos and elements. I spent some time playing with blending modes for the backgrounds of each of them. Click on the links to see credits for Dancing and Soccer Camp.

Friday, July 20, 2007

Big news!

I can't believe how busy this week has been. I have often thought that Moms who can work part-time have the best of both worlds - more time with their kids and a steady income. But, having worked part-time this week, I can see that I would never have time to actually get my job done in half the time. It was fun going with Emmelia to soccer camp, though. Yesterday she had a violin lesson at 8 in the morning, and soccer camp didn't start until 9:30, so we went out to breakfast, just the two of us. It was really fun just spending some one-on-one time with her, and I think we need to work on scheduling that sort of thing in with both kids.

Both the Deac and I have big news today. I was chosen for another (fourth!) Creative Team! I'm very excited. This new one is for Mindy Armour and it's pretty relaxed as far as CT requirements go - 3 layouts a month. I can handle that! I think these are all the teams I'm going to apply for for a while, though. Four ought to keep me pretty busy and inspired. Now I can't wait until I have some time to scrap! We are going camping this weekend, so it will have to wait until next week. I just got a bonus at work, and I'm thinking very seriously about using part of it to buy a laptop. If I had that, I could scrap AND camp - hee! Okay, maybe it'll be better that I can just be out enjoying nature with my kids and scrap it later.

So, today the Deac accepted a position with a (computer) storage company in the town we live in. This means a very short commute and a lot more money! We are really excited. A good friend of ours works at the same company and referred him. She loves the work environment and the company seems very stable. The only part we have to work out is dealing with his work schedule, since he will likely be working the late afternoon-evening shift 4 or 5 days a week. But it might work out better because he can take the kids to daycare in the morning (after spending a little time with them) and I can get to work earlier. Then I can leave work earlier in the afternoon and the girls will be spending less time overall in daycare. That will be a bonus, too.

Well, before I get back to finishing up a few things so I can get out of here and get packed for our camping trip, I wanted to share a couple of blogs of friends of ours who are off on great adventures. Our friend Alexandra is off on a round-the-world mission trip and you can read all about her adventures here. Our friend Ben is riding his bicycle from Colorado to Alaska. Read about his trip here. Ah, the things you can do when you are young... ;-)

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

Better and Busy Week!

Well, we all seem to be recovering from our brush with pertussis. The antibiotics helped enough that I'm even more convinced it really was pertussis. Thank goodness we found out in time to treat it!

This week is incredibly busy. Such that I'm only working part-time and taking the rest off as vacation time. Emmelia is in soccer camp in the morning Monday through Thursday. She is doing an awesome job, even though it's in the 90's out there and these kids are basically running around in the sun for 2 straight hours (the coaches have been good about giving them lots of water breaks). So far, I've hung out and watched camp, but I really don't *need* to - maybe tomorrow I'll go run errands or something. But it's giving me a little time to just relax and catch up on my book club novel, too. Here's a photo of Emmelia dribbling the ball during a scrimmage on Monday morning:
Last night the girls started swimming lessons. Emmelia did great, but was disappointed to not get to play around in the pool afterwards. Since she has a field trip to the pool with her class every Friday, I'm hoping she'll be able to get over her disappointment. Maura didn't participate in her class, but at least she stayed in the water. I don't think she liked her teacher very much, but the director of the program tried to engage her a little last night and said she'd work with her tomorrow night, so I'm hopeful that by the end of the 4-week class Maura will be at least doing some activities with her class. It's all about feeling comfortable in the water at this age, anyway. Here's the girls at the end of their lessons last night. Emmelia's still disappointed at having to go home and eat dinner, so she wasn't that into smiling at the moment:
Other than that, we had Emmelia's occupational therapy appointment this morning, karate tomorrow, violin on Thursday, and are going camping this Friday! It's the first time we've actually been camping since we got married, despite having the desire to do so for all these years. I'm looking forward to it. It's only for one night, so I think it will be the perfect intro for the whole family and hopefully give us the confidence to try a longer trip next time.

My other big news is that I was accepted to be on a third digi-scrap Creative Team - for Chris Beasley (aka Seebee) at Digitals. I'm so excited! Being on a CT means that you get to use a designer's products in your layouts in exchange for doing a little marketing for them in the digiscrap world. This is the first CT I've been on that isn't for a designer I've known since their designing debut (although it is her first CT). I am really looking forward to being a part of this new group and working with her products! Chris makes some awesome freebies and gives them away on her blog - particularly her "Dream Trip" series for Walt Disney World layouts. I encourage you to at least check those out!

Speaking of which, we are definitely planning to take the girls back to Disney World this fall. We need to get to making actual plans, I suppose. I put it off until after the exam, but I did order a Disney vacation planning DVD we should watch pretty soon. The thought of arranging everything seems pretty overwhelming to me, but I'm excited to actually go there and know we'll have a blast.

Friday, July 13, 2007

I survived and Pertussis!

Just a quick note to let you know I survived the exam! It was intense, but not as brutal as everyone makes it out to be. I even found myself thinking at one point (God forbid!) - "this is kind of fun!" Heh. The Deac says that's because I failed utterly and I've no doubt he's right. No, really, this exam is VERY HARD TO PASS. People much better at and more enamoured of physics than I take it several times before passing. In general, I found it to be good practice. I won't get the results until the week after Thanksgiving, so I'm putting it out of my head for now.

This week we also found out that the reason Emmelia has had a very bad cold for the past week is that we were exposed to an infant with an active whooping cough (pertussis) infection at a birthday part at the end of June. I've learned a lot about the pertussis vaccine and disease this week. Bottom line is that all of us except Maura are showing symptoms (she's been vaccinated more recently, so she hopefully won't get it) and are on antibiotics for it. Apparently the vaccine is only 59-90% effective anyway, and they are finding that it wears off in 2-5 years. So adults are rarely immune to it. Also, if you don't start treatment in the first 3 weeks of symptoms (BEFORE the tell-tale whoops begin), antibiotics do no good. We were never positively diagnosed, but our doctor thinks it's worth treating as pertussis anyway. I have to say it's weird to get a call from someone at a health department telling you you've been exposed to something.

It took me longer to recover from the exam than I thought, but I did manage to get this LO done today. I wanted to use my friend Amy's awesome new templates and also applied to be on another CT with this layout about the kids' tumbling class (credits are here). I didn't feel like it was my best work. Sometimes it's hard to get the creative juices flowing again when you've taken an extended break.

Tonight we're hanging out with friends enjoying delicious Thai food and playing a new game we've all fallen in love with - Munchkin! I can't wait!

Hope everyone has a great weekend!

Tuesday, July 03, 2007

T-Minus 6 days and counting!

Less than a week until my exam and I will be so glad when it is over! I will be able to have my life and brain back (well, my life, anyway)! I still have 3 lectures from my class to watch and then will be set to just review back through my notes and memorize formulas and equations. Did I mention how glad I will be when this exam is over? I hope I pass at least one of the two parts.

We had a very busy weekend. Too busy, I think. The girls were asleep pretty early Sunday evening. We had 2 liturgies, 2 dinners and a lunch with various friends, 2 birthday parties and helped at a yard sale to raise money for the daycare center. Too much for only 2 days! I did manage to catch this adorable video of Maura at one of the birthday parties on Saturday, though (we'll see if this works):

Sunday was the day of transition between priests at our parish. A good friend of ours brought his nice, expensive camera and photographed the liturgy and took group photos afterwards, which was very fun. I'm still working on processing all of them, but here's one he took of us with Maura's godparents.
And here's a couple of just Maura and her godparents. They are leaving to start a new mission in Denver (so at least they'll still be local and we can get together occasionally). It will be sad to not see them every Sunday, but then again, maybe it will be good, too - hee - we won't get sick of each other.
In other news, we had Emmelia evaluated for sensory processing dysfunction and she scored very low in 4 out of 14 sensory categories. We have noticed these deficits causing a high degree of anxiety and frustration at times. So we are pursuing some occupational therapy in the hopes of helping her learn self-regulation and coping strategies before she starts kindergarten.

July is going to be a busy month with my CHP exam, Arabic class, violin lessons, occupational therapy, Emmelia's class field trips, karate, swimming lessons and soccer camp. Wow. Somewhere in there I'll need to squeeze in work and digiscrapping. ;-)

Thursday, June 21, 2007

Patches

My poor bean. Last night when I picked Emmelia up from karate (SIDE NOTE: She earned her first "stripe" on her belt! Woo Hoo! She got it for learning her first form - step punches), I noticed the sclera of her eye was red and she was rubbing at it a lot. Come to find out there had been an incident involving a stick being thrown at her during her daycare class field trip to the park earlier in the day. Having experienced something very similar when I was in 4th grade, I immediately became concerned about a scratched cornea.

We stopped at the Urgent Care before picking up Maura and the doc stained Emmelia's eye and looked at it under a black light - sure enough, we both saw two little scratches, plain as day. Luckily, the scratches didn't look deep and the cornea heals itself very quickly. Emmelia had to wear an eye patch overnight, but was able to discard it today (for which she was very grateful). I'm just glad the damage wasn't worse. The doc did check her vision and it was still at least 20/20, so that is good. Here's a photo of poor little "Patches" (a nickname she didn't appreciate too much last night, but thought was funny this morning):
We put the stickers on the ugly patch ourselves - and that helped Emmelia feel better about it. she wasn't smiling before that, I can assure you. Maura thought it looked like so much fun to put stickers on your face, that she did this:
Hee!

Well, on tap today is Arabic class and studying about the interaction of radiation with matter, so I'd better get to it.

Wednesday, June 20, 2007

Still Studying....

That's odd - it looks like I didn't ever post the layouts I made a week or so ago about Em's graduation and last year's Halloween fun. I didn't set out to do a Halloween layout, specifically, but the daughter of some friends of ours is having a birthday party this weekend and wanted a witch party (long story, has to do with pinatas). I offered to make the invitations and was looking through my scrapping supplies for witch-related themes and decided to just scrap the Halloween photos, already.

Here are the credits for Preschool Graduation and Halloween 2006.
So I didn't go to the nurse-in, after all. Some friends called and wanted to get together and so we spent Saturday morning cleaning the house. It desperately needed it, so it felt good to get the clutter under control again. The birthday parties were fun for the girls, but not that well attended. I guess Father's Day weekend is a bad weekend to hold birthday parties. Who knew? Our Father's Day was pretty boring - in fact everyone pretty much took a long nap in the afternoon (I finished my novel for my book club - The Time Traveler's Wife. Next we read The Life of Pi). But the Deac enjoyed the new John Mclean book we got him and the gifts the girls made for him at daycare (peanut-based gifts seem to be popular at the daycare):
Later in the day we went out shopping and ended up with new soccer balls for the girls, as well as adorable little purple and pink catcher's mitts that light up when you catch a ball. So the Deac played catch with Emmelia while Maura and I kicked her new soccer ball around the yard. It was a nice day.
Well, only 20 days left until the big exam, and I've got more lectures to cover. Wish me brain power!

Friday, June 15, 2007

Nurse-in!

Never in my 5+ years of nursing have I had an opportunity to be a radical lactivist. Part of me thinks I should before my kiddos wean, you know? Anyway, all that to say I'm debating whether or not to take part in a nurse-in at Elitch gardens in Denver tomorrow. Here's the news story about it.

We do have TWO birthday parties to go to tomorrow, so I'm not sure it will work out time-wise. But we'll see how we all feel tomorrow. Not to mention the fact that Maura is one of only 3 children out of about 30 in the toddler rooms at daycare to not yet develop the symptoms of Hand-Foot-Mouth disease that is going around. I may not want to hang out in the sun for hours tomorrow, particularly if she doesn't feel well. Maybe I'll just never earn my lactivist label...

Last weekend we hung out in the sun a lot. On Friday, I went with Emmelia's pre-K class on a field trip to a local pool. It was a lot of fun, but I got sunburned, as I do every year on that field trip. Seems to be how my body adjusts to summer - first, it has to burn. Then on Saturday we went to Arvada for Field Day for the kids from our parish. We all had a great time playing relay races, tag, and parachute in a park all afternoon. There are some fun photos from that in my flickr badge if you want to check it out.

This week I went with Em's class to the same place she had her 5th birthday party - the place with lots of bouncy castles for kids (& adults) to play in. I figured it would be good to see how my newly healed tendons held up and they did great! I also went swimming with them this morning. Other than that, I've been busting a hump studying, studying, studying for the CHP Exam. Three more weeks and it will be over. I have SOOOOOO much more to learn and memorize! So if I'm not around much before July 9th, you know I have my nose in a book or glued to the computer watching video lectures until then. I probably won't be able to justify any scrapping between now and then, either.

I have been learning a lot in my Arabic class, but will learn a lot more once I can devote more brain space to it. It's not really that complicated of a language. It actually makes a lot of sense, but has a complicated alphabet. So far, I'm finding the class is helping de-mystify the Arabic language for me, and that's good. I can learn all the Arabic I want from the folks at my parish, but having a basic understanding from the class will help immensely.

On that note, I have the second half of a lecture on Shielding and Activation to get to. Hope everyone has a lovely weekend, whether or not you see me breastfeeding my 3-year-old on the news!

Tuesday, June 05, 2007

God Grant the Deac Many Years!

Friday, June 01, 2007

The Graduate

Graduation went well - the ceremony was appropriately short but very cute. The center director said a few words, the kids marched in... they recited the pledge of allegiance with the audience. Then they said their poem. It was a modified version of what was on their diplomas:
This was SO cute. I was impressed the kids had really memorized the whole thing. Then each child was called up individually to receive a (fake - they got the real one later - just like a real graduation! lol) diploma and a "class ring." These were little golden plastic rings that say "ABC". These were PRIZE possessions, let me tell ya! As each child came forward, the center director asked them what they want to be when they grow up. Emmelia said "a ballerina (that was a popular one among the girls), a swimming teacher and a nurse." Now, I've been working hard on stressing to Emmelia that she can also be a doctor. A nurse is fine, too, as long as she knows there are many options. She really likes the character of Dixie McCall on our DVDs of the old "Emergency!" show and I worry that she's being influenced by this show from the 60s. I'm sure it will be fine by the time she's grown up, though. Here's my cutie saying that: The Deac and I gave Emmelia a matching graduation robe and cap for her new Hello Kitty doll from Build-a-Bear as a present, along with $5 and a card. It was hard to figure out how to put the little mortar board on Hello Kitty's giant head! But the Deac jury-rigged a solution with thread and velcro. He even had to add velcro to the hat itself so Hello Kitty's bow would stay on. He did an amazing job and Emmelia really liked it. I mean, how could she not? It was pretty cute - even the tassel color matched: And, here's my little graduate. It's so hard to believe she's going to be starting kindergarten in just about 2 and a half months!
Well, in other news the girls finished their tumbling class and I'm glad it's over. It wasn't that great of a class and Maura never did warm up to hers and participate. We also had karate this week and Emmelia is really loving that. I think it will be a good experience for her. I had a really productive week at work and also finished up the Parish Directory. It was a great project, but also a big one and I'm glad to be done. We hand them out this Sunday. That means next week I ought to be able to concentrate on studying physics!

Wednesday, May 30, 2007

Scrappin' Frenzy!

We had a great Memorial Day weekend. We were really busy in the yard - so much that I'm still sore from it! But we got a lot done, which is good. We spent every evening from Thursday through Monday with friends - that was perhaps the best part. Even in the midst of that, I found some time to scrap, and so scrap I did! I'll show you those layouts in a minute, but I just have to say that tonight we have the excitement of Emmelia's graduation from preschool! I used to wonder why on earth kids need to have graduation ceremonies from preschool... but now I know - because it's so stinkin' cute! She has a little cap and gown and will get a diploma - the whole nine yards. I'm planning to take lots of photos and video of the event. I sent the Deac out today to get a graduation robe set for Emmelia's new Hello Kitty doll from Build-a-Bear so she can carry her doll with her in the procession. It just seemed like she deserved to get something special for the event - it's a Very. Big. Deal. , especially to her. She's been practicing the poem her class will recite and last night I even heard her muttering the words to the pledge of allegiance. So cute - I can't wait.

Here's the layouts I've made since my last post. I've been busy! You can see why I had to get a blog post in before the graduation pictures are ready for showing tomorrow...

These first two are from our weekend with Grammy and they are my two favorites. Click on the links to see credits for Build-a-Bear and Fountain.


































This one I had to do because Jen Caputo gave away her awesome Food of Love kit on her blog. It was perfect to do this layout with. So I also used a blog freebie template from Traci Sims for the layout. Credits are HERE.


This is kind of an odd one... but I wanted to use this photo because I thought it was cute. So I tried to be clever and unique with it. I'm not sure it worked, though. Here's the credits.


These last two are some Quick Pages I used to try to catch up on photos I haven't scrapped yet from a while ago. I didn't even bother to post them in the galleries, so if you want to know the credits, leave a comment or e-mail me.



































I wasn't sure about the colors on the Easter one and played around with it a bit to try to change it. But, turns out it kind of grows on you. It's nice to do something more non-traditional occasionally.

Well, better get going now, but look for cutie-pie graduation photos soon!

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

Fun Weekend

We had a really fun weekend. My mom came up to visit and take the kids to Build-a-Bear Workshop to celebrate Maura's birthday. We drove up to the shop and Maura was pretty overwhelmed with all the critters you could pick to stuff. She finally picked one and, as we were waiting in line she spotted a fountain outside that kids were playing in. In typical 3-year-old fashion, all bears and animals were forgotten in favor of playing in that fountain. So we put everything down and went outside for a while. Here's Maura and Grammy enjoying the fountain:
But, after that fun time, we coaxed the girls back into the store and proceeded to spend lots of money. Three dolls came home with us - Maura's pink bear named Tropher, Emmelia's Hello Kitty named Laura, and a snow leopard firefighter doll named Blaze that I got for the Deac in celebration of our 14th anniversary. Here's Maura with Tropher (I'm really not sure where she came up with that name!):
While we were there, we also made a bear to be donated to an international adoptions charity.

Here's the Deac completing the birth certificate for Blaze (so cute, isn't it?):

On Sunday, the Deac helped out with a wildland firefighting training while the girls and I hung out with Grammy. We went out to our favorite place for breakfast and got some flowers to plant in the yard. Grammy was kind enough to help us plant everything before she left, which is good because I was beginning to get tired (more about that later). We also made a concrete stepping stone with the girls' handprints in it for Grammy for her Mother's Day present.

Yeah, so on Monday I realized I had mastitis. I had been sick the week before, but chalked it up to a virus that has been going around. Over the weekend, I developed breast pain and the red streaking characteristic of an infection and by Monday there was no denying it. So I called my doc and got some antibiotics. I thought about trying to treat it to avoid antibiotics, but pretty much every source I looked at agreed that if red streaking is present for more than 48 hours, antibiotics are necessary. And I do have to say I feel a lot better - I didn't even realize how bad I felt until I felt better, if you know what I mean. I'm just still tired, probably from the antibiotics themselves. My goal this weekend is to take it easy (within reason - there's still weeds to pull).

Next week my baby graduates from pre-K. They are having a ceremony, complete with little caps and gowns. I know it will be so cute. I just wish we knew what school she'll be going to next year. Actually, there's no rush as long as she gets into the one we want.

As of today, there are only 47 days until the CHP exam. Which, I found out today, will likely be in Lakewood. Bleh. That means I have to drive about an hour to an hour and a half to get there and the exam begins at 8 am. Bleh.

Thursday, May 17, 2007

It's not easy being green.....

I decided to scrap today. I found an email in my inbox that I'd been saving about my friend Amy's new Salientia Exploration mini-kit (by the way, the geek in me loves that she uses scientific names for her kit designs), so I went and downloaded it. Inspiration struck when I remembered a photo I'd taken of Emmelia playing on a frog sculpture in one of the little playground areas on Pearl Street when we were there in March. Amy had also challenged me way back in February to scraplift this layout she'd liked and sent to me. So this is the result. I think it came out pretty fun and, what's more, I used EVERY thing in the kit. That's kind of unusual for me these days. I love feedback, so be sure to tell me what you think! Full credits are HERE.

Other than that, things are going well. I'm currently trying to figure out if I can take an Arabic class this summer. It's a non-credit class designed for staff, so it's not only cheap but also pretty laid back. The only fly in the ointment is that it happens at the same time I'd need to leave to take Emmelia to karate lessons. But I think the father of Emmelia's friend who's also doing karate might take them both there. I could still get to the dojo halfway through the class and see how she's progressing. And it's only for a couple of months... we'll see. Speaking of which, she and her sister are coming over tonight so I should probably plan to leave on time tonight so I'll be home when their parents need to drop them off.

Tuesday, May 15, 2007

14 years!

Fourteen years ago today, in fact right around this time of day, the Deac and I were taking vows and saying "I do." It's hard to believe 14 years have gone by! But I'm glad to say that I'm married to my best friend. (awww)

We don't have any particular plans, but might go out to dinner later this week.

Tonight the girls have tumbling class, so that wraps up doing anything much tonight. Oh, and before tumbling class, Emmelia has karate. And today I just signed BOTH kids up (I don't have a baby anymore! *sniff* *sniff*) for soccer in the fall. And this summer there will be swimming lessons. We will be busy, but I think it will be a good kind of busy. We'll still be spending time with the kids and they'll be getting some exercise.

Mother's Day was nice, but would've been better if the kids had taken a nap. Hee. No, really, we had a nice day and Emmelia gave me a tulip-shaped recipe clip that she painted with her picture on it. Clipped to it was a recipe she invented for "chocolate cake." It included 2 cups Splenda and I realized that the Deac's diabetes is already having an effect on the way the girls think about food. In a good way, I think. Maura gave me a pot she decorated with tissue paper and glue. It had a few barely-started Aster seedlings in it. I'm keeping it at work where plants seem to thrive, rather than at home, where plants seem to die from neglect.

I took some photos of the girls on Sunday, and then later used the camera self-timer (the Deac had a fire call, so I had to be creative) to take some of all 3 of us together. Here's a layout I made with some of those photos:

I'm not completely enamored of this layout, but I can't quite put my finger on what I don't like about it. I do like Christine's new "Mother May I?" kit. It might be that I wouldn't have placed things that way, but sort of "had" to because of the template (of course, you never "have" to with a template - and in fact I did move some of the template pieces around). In other words, they aren't placed where I would have put them myself. Maybe that's it - and I do think it's a limitation of templates - they help you when you don't feel that creative, but they stifle creativity at the same time. Anyway, full credits are HERE.

Well, I'd better get going to pick up Emmelia, change her into her gi and take her to the dojo!

Friday, May 11, 2007

Catch up

Wow - sorry to drop off the face of the planet like that. I've been busy with work and studying physics. I've been surprised at how I've actually enjoyed the health physics study. I'm feeling more confident about things, but still have a TON of studying to do!

I've also been doing a lot of physical therapy to aid my recovery from the tendon release surgery. It is going really well and I am encouraged. I have been having a lot of ankle pain because my ankle bones were never able to move correctly with each other. The tendons used to keep the joint too tight. So now that the tendons are as loose as they should be, my ankle bones are hitting each other instead of gliding around nicely. Anyway, PT has been helping immensely and I'm starting to learn how to walk again - normally! It's exciting.

I haven't felt at all like scrapping. Some of it is because I'm too busy to spend time on it, but some of it is also that I'm going through one of my periodic phases of being annoyed with how commercial and "fake" the digiscrap world has become. Oh well. Since I really need to study, it's okay with me that I don't particularly feel like scrapping. I can catch up AFTER the exam.... I did manage to finish up a layout I started last week sometime with the recent mega-freebie kit In Memory of Miles (credits HERE):
The girls started tumbling classes this week. Maura was afraid of it, but Emmelia loved every second. By the end of Emmelia's class (Maura's was first), Maura had warmed up to it, so I think next week will go better. You can see some not-so-great photos in my flickr badge.

This summer we will be doing (not all at the same time - we're taking the phased approach) tumbling, violin (Maura is starting now, too!), swimming and karate. In the fall, soccer for Emmelia, violin for both and of course Emmelia will start kindergarten. I'd actually love for her to do hockey in the K-5 league, but I doubt I can convince her that it is that fun. I might have to have their babysitter take them ice skating. She plays college hockey, so maybe her influence would help.

Hope everyone enjoys their weekend. We don't have much planned - haircuts, gardening, etc. but the weather is supposed to be gorgeous, so I can't wait.

Tuesday, May 01, 2007

Busy!

I have been swamped lately! Mostly with work - it's the change of months and that always means I have a few more things to do. Besides that, I'm really trying to study for this exam that is coming up in only TWO months!!! I have a LOT to study and learn before then! It really needs to take over my life.

I'm finishing up typing all the information into our parish directory. I'm excited that we will have one, but I've been gathering photos and information forms since the beginning of February. I really need to get it published soon before things change drastically (seems like people are always having babies, getting married, or moving in our parish). In 2 months, we'll have a new priest and it will be out of date anyway, but it will still be a useful base.

This weekend the girls have a birthday party they were invited to, then Emmelia has rehearsal on Saturday for her violin recital on Sunday! I'm really hoping she'll play her solo. She might not - this past weekend we had the Church School program and where was my child when they called her name to say her line ("God is Forgiveness")? Outside playing. Sigh. Well, we'll see how it goes - there really isn't a lot of pressure and that is nice. I think she might refuse because she's just been in that mood lately. At her lesson last week, she absolutely refused to participate, even leaving the studio and going outside while her teacher and I were talking. She's doing great with practicing, though. Her teacher gave me an idea for giving kids a visual idea of practice and we got the supplies for it this weekend. It's fairly simple - there is one box that has several tongue depressors. On each one is written a task to do - either a piece to play, or a rhythym to clap. Some non-violin-related things are thrown in, too, like "Give Papa a hug." As each task is accomplished, Emmelia gets to put the stick in another box and she can see visually how much she has done and how much more she has to do during practice. As she gets older, we can add or subtract sticks and she'll be able to read them on her own.

This weekend I went on a bike ride with the kids. We just rode over to the house of friends and the kids played a bit before we rode back. It was great to get out and enjoy the sunshine, though. Maura rode in the trailer and Emmelia rode the bike she got for Christmas! Even though we had to cross a very busy street, she did a wonderful job of staying with me and listening for direction.

Tomorrow is the funeral for one of the bus drivers at the daycare center. He had a stroke 2 weeks ago and went downhill quickly. The parent action committee is taking in food for the teachers to munch on during the day so they can have some time to just process and chat without having to worry about getting/heating their lunch. Emmelia has mentioned Mr. Jack a few times, so she is aware of what is going on. When I told her he died, she said she misses him and Grandad. She's a sweet girl. She often tells me how much she misses her grandad.

Thursday, April 26, 2007

Whew!

What a busy week! Sunday evening we had a gathering of Orthodox Christians from many different parishes and jurisdictions at our church. These are typical in most urban areas on Sunday evenings during Lent - they are called pan-Orthodox Vespers. But this year our parish decided to opt out of the Lenten rotation and host it after Pascha when we could be more celebratory and have meat and stuff. It was a lot of fun to see our friends from different parishes that we don't get to see very often. Since BOTH girls had fallen asleep in their carseats when we got there, I got a lot of reading done on my reading group book - The Namesake by Jhumpa Lahiri. It's an interesting book about an immigrant family from India and their experiences (and those of their children). One of the parenting e-mail lists I've belonged to for years just started a branch-off reading list, so it's all online. I think it will be enjoyable. We have a month to read the agreed-upon book, and then a month to discuss it while we are reading the next book. This is our first book.

Let's see - Monday I had a Parent Action Committee meeting at daycare, which meant I had to finish up designing the brochure for the daycare center that I've been working on for a while. At first I designed the whole thing in the Gimp, but then the Deac told me about an open source desktop publishing program called Scribus. So I ended up using the Gimp for photo manipulation and the logo for the front page, then put everything into Scribus, which worked really well! I was able to save it as a .pdf file at the end, which is easier for emailing and printing. I am planning to use Scribus to do the Parish Directory, too - which I REALLY need to find the time to work on soon.

Tuesday I had physical therapy for my foot. It wasn't as helpful as the PT I had last week, but I learned a few more exercises to try to regain some strength in my toes. Then Tuesday afternoon I picked up the girls from daycare early for doctor AND dentist appointments? Am I a bad mom for scheduling them both on the same afternoon? It worked out well, anyway. Maura had her 3-year checkup. She is very healthy and the doctor has no concerns. She was 36.75 inches tall and weighed 33 pounds. According to the CDC growth charts, that puts her at the 95th percentile for weight to length. She's just starting to lengthen out, though, so I expect that to change a bit over the next year. Emmelia did not have a doctor appointment, but needed to get her pre-kindergarten vaccinations. She remembered from her 5-year check-up last fall that we were delaying her shots until this summer. As a result, she's been apprehensive about both the arrival of summer and kindergarten. So we decided to get her vaccinations out of the way. She got a DTaP shot, but since she had a slight reaction to her first MMR shot, we decided to draw blood for a titer instead of giving her the second shot... this she did NOT enjoy but she was brave and did it and was all done. Right? Except the doctor's office called yesterday to inform me that the vial of blood was LOST somewhere between the doctor's office and the lab. I'm heartbroken about making her have to go through that again. Both girls had good cleanings and check-ups at the dentist, and then we met the Deac for dinner and had a lovely evening.

Last night we had Kindergarten Orientation at the elementary school we are hoping Emmelia gets to go to in the fall. We are 6th on the waiting list, which will hopefully give her a spot, even if it's in the afternoon kindergarten section. Emmelia got to meet her potential teacher and look at the classroom, even play with some of the toys. She LOVED it and wanted to start kindergarten right away. It's kind of cruel to make her wait 4 months... and will be worse if she doesn't get into this school! Keep your fingers crossed!

I have been working hard on getting caught up in my certification review class. It's time consuming, but I'm excited about being prepared and passing the exam this summer.

So tonight I'm hoping for a very relaxing evening at home, perhaps an early bedtime for the girls. All these evening activities are taking their toll on all of us!

Friday, April 20, 2007

National Day of Mourning

National tragedies take on a different meaning when you have kids. I remember feeling that distinctly in 2001 when we were watching the attack on the World Trade Center. I was seven months pregnant at the time with my first child and I felt a little overwhelmed at the idea of bringing a baby into a world filled with violence, war and uncertainty.

Events like this week at VA Tech bring back that feeling to me. So I decided today to make this layout - it is a layout I wanted to do, but didn't want to do at the same time, if you know what I mean. I believe we should scrapbook bad events as well as good ones and I hope that someday my scraps will show my kids what sort of person they were raised by. Although it's a fairly simple page I wanted to recognize the VA Tech massacre in some way just to document how it made me feel.

Monday, April 16, 2007

Over-parenting

Our parties this past week went great! Maura's Curious George birthday party on Saturday was particularly fun. I'll try to add some photos to my Flickr account today. We are still recovering from less sleep than normal over holy week and Pascha. Hopefully we'll be able to make better use of next weekend's promised lovely weather to do something outdoors.

Fellow attachment parent and author Katie Allison Granju has a new article out on over-parenting that I thought I would share. I definitely see this attitude a lot in this area, but tend to fall more towards the "benign neglect" spectrum myself (my online friends and I routinely refer to ourselves as "slacker moms"):
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Recently, a coworker and I were looking at some old family photos she had lying on her desk. Several of them were of her grandmother, tending to various household chores for the camera.

The photos looked to be from sometime in the 1950s, or possibly the early '60s. There she was, dressed in her June Cleaver-fresh, shirtwaist dress, standing at her spotless formica kitchen counter, preparing a meal. In another shot, she was perfectly coiffed, and dressed in pressed capris as she weeded the front garden.

"That's how I remember her," my friend said. "She was obsessed with having a perfect house and yard. Her casseroles looked better than they tasted, and I don't recall ever seeing a speck of dust or dirt anywhere in their house."

She went on.

"God, it's so ironic. She was so consumed with being the perfect homemaker that she didn't realize no one was actually comfortable in her home."

Those of us with pre-women's lib mothers and grandmothers remember women like this. They were the obsessive, vaguely dissatisfied homemakers Betty Friedan wrote about in The Feminine Mystique. They were the women whose worlds had become so narrowly focused on one facet of their lives — homemaking — that all the joy had been sucked right out of them.

Thank God we aren't those women. Right? Right?

Or are we? In recent years, I've encountered a disturbing trend among my current mothering peers. While we no longer pore endlessly over the grout-cleaning tips and curtain-sewing patterns in Ladies Home Journal, we've replaced this pre-feminist housewifery-porn with postmodern parenting-porn in the form of Fit Pregnancy and PARENTS magazines.

We may not stay up nights worrying about how to keep our whites whiter, but you can bet we're losing sleep over why little Jasper isn't yet out of diapers. We may no longer feel the need to compare the firmness of our jello salad with that of the other women at the church potluck, but we're not-so-secretly frantic over why little Ella from playgroup can already tie her shoes when our own five-year-old Ruby can't yet do the same.

In other words, we may no longer be "professional homemakers," but whether we stay home with our kids, or work outside the home, we've turned parenting into its own, highly stressful, endlessly demanding, often joyless undertaking. In fact, a recent study by research group Public Agenda found that seventy-six percent of American parents describe raising kids today as "much harder" than it was during their own childhoods.

But are we making it a lot harder than it has to be? I think so.

Last week, I was eating a meal with the parents of a lovely one-year-old child, their first. As the very cute baby played with her food, I noticed she was managing to get quite a bit of her mashed peas into her rosebud mouth with her small spoon.

"Wow, she's really getting the hang of that spoon," I commented with a smile.

"Yes," her mother replied, "I've been working really hard with her on it all week. It's kept me pretty busy."

Working really hard on teaching her to use a spoon? All week? Kept her pretty busy?

I shouldn't have been surprised. Hearing this intelligent, accomplished woman with a master's degree in biology tell me how consuming she's found teaching her toddler to use a spoon is just one more example of our current culture of hysterical parenting. I mean, really, when did parenting become this difficult? When did the admirable quality of involved parenting become this?

While it's one thing to be pleased — even proud — over baby's ability to connect spoon with mouth, it's quite another for her mother to become that invested in it, logistically or emotionally.

Wait, wait, you may be asking. Aren't you that same Katie Allison Granju who wrote a parenting book telling people to give their children more attention? Well, yes, and no. I did write book on attachment parenting, and I do believe strongly that infants and very young children thrive best with a high-touch, responsive style of parenting, but I'm also that mom who encouraged her two-year-old to play in the mud — some of which he certainly ate — and her five-year-old to climb trees. Yes, my kids slept with me as infants — because I found we all got the most sleep that way — but the kids were enjoying sleepovers with family and friends by kindergarten.

These days, I let my youngest kid enjoy his growing collection of pocket knives, and I expect my children to ride their scooters out of my eyesight in our urban neighborhood. And I frequently tell my children that since I already completed elementary school, and have no intention of repeating the work, they will need to do their homework without me hovering nearby.

I have often described my parenting philosophy as "benign neglect." Responsive parenting means just that: we respond to children's needs. It's not the same as over-parenting, in which we anticipate, preempt, or take control of our children's needs and developmental tasks. <

Of course, like all parents, I have my worries. In my case, I fret that they are watching too much TV and not developing a strong enough work ethic. I worry that the fact that their parents are divorced will leave them irrevocably damaged. And like everyone else I know, the primal fear of stranger abduction is always hovering at the edge of my motherbrain.

But I can say honestly that I don't obsess about the minutiae of my parenting, and as I get ready to give birth to child number four with husband number two, fifteen years after becoming a mother for the first time at age twenty-three, I am increasingly finding that this puts me in a distinct minority. In the past decade and a half, the parenting zeitgeist has shifted . . . into overdrive.

While there have always been obsessive, overbearing parents, they used to be the exception, rather than the norm. They were the kinds of hyper-involved parents no one wanted to become; because as they lived their lives solely through the prism of their parenting, it was believed they produced the archetypal "mama's boy," the child who was never allowed any activities outside his parents' watchful eye, and who was coddled and protected from all conceivable risk. This type of childhood, we have always believed, ultimately produced individuals who were stunted in their ability to make bold moves or take leadership roles — or even function independently.

Until recently, the essential tasks of parenting were seen as nurturing and socializing children. Today, however, this simple mandate seems criminally neglectful. Now, parenting requires constant vigilance, unflagging attention to every detail of our children's lives, and ever present monitoring of their every activity.

This over-parenting has become an epidemic. Legions of well-intentioned mothers and fathers, urged on by popular media and the marketplace, are frantically striving to create an endlessly controlled, bubble-wrapped childrearing environment. From neuroses with regulating our babies' sleep habits, to insistence on antimicrobial everything, to the attempt to continue "babyproofing" our homes until our babies are well into elementary school, our current parenting zeitgeist is competitive, market-driven . . . and exhausting.

But as hard as we are on ourselves, we are even harder on our parenting peers. In its study of parenting attitudes, Public Agenda found that six in ten of us rate other parents only "fair" or "poor" in raising their children. And these days, one big way we try to out-do these "fair" and "poor" parents is to buy better stuff. Our parental anxieties now include the belief that without the hippest, newest parenting swag, successful childrearing is no longer possible.

In fact, we no longer choose a stroller, but a parenting identity. Are you a trendy Bugaboo Frog kind of mom or perhaps a Mclaren traditionalist? God forbid you show up at the playground with a straight-from-Baby-Superstore Graco. How tacky! One mother I spoke to for this article sheepishly confided to me that she had gotten a new credit card for the sole purpose of paying for her $1,000 Stokke Xplory stroller, saying it made her feel like there was at least one thing she was assured she would do "better than anyone else at playgroup" for her son.

Peggy O'Mara, publisher of Mothering magazine and a keen observer of American parents for the past two decades, says she believes the commercialization of parenting masks our insecurities.

"I think people think they need a lot of baby gear because so many people use their children as social collateral, and judge one another by what they have for them," says O'Mara.

Don't get me wrong. I know that active, involved parenting matters . . . a lot. For those of us who take it on, raising a kid is certainly among the most meaningful and important tasks we'll ever do. In fact, I happen to agree with Jackie Kennedy, who famously said, "If you bungle raising your children, I don't think whatever else you do matters very much." The question becomes, however, whether the hovering, obsessive, all-consuming parenting style that has become de rigeur is actually serving our children — or us — very well. In our hyperfocus on all things parenting, are we bungling the very thing we seek to perfect?

Nearly ten years ago, author Judith Rich Harris made the cover of Time magazine with her wildly popular book, The Nurture Assumption, in which she argued that parents should stop worrying so much. But Harris took her argument several leagues further with her assertion that the reason parents should stop worrying is that ultimately, what mothers and fathers do — or don't do — has little impact on how children turn out.

But Harris was dead wrong. Parents have a huge impact on how their children turn out, and that's precisely why we need to take a hard look at the obsessive, controlling, perfectionistic parenting culture we're living in. In fact, facilitating children's ability to function independently, to figure things out, and to grow into themselves without excessive interference is in itself an essential task of parenting.

Parents' increasing obsession with creating a totally germ-free environment for children offers an instructive example of the way over-parenting is counterproductive. Fifteen years ago, when I brought my first baby home from the hospital, his father and I were instructed to keep him away from obviously sick people during the newborn period. After that, our pediatrician told us that exposure during infancy and childhood to household and environmental germs was part of building a healthy immune system.

Fast forward to 2007, as parents now attempt to create an artificially germ-free childhood. Not only do they avoid exposing their kids to sick people, they surround their children with antibacterial soaps and washes. They buy toys and baby gear coated in space-age, microbe-resistant surfaces, and trips to the grocery store require a specially made "shopping cart cover" meant to prevent little Liam or Ava from encountering anyone else's bacteria.

But medical experts are pleading with parents to stop with the anti-germ hysteria because rather than preventing illness in children, it's actually causing it, encouraging the growth of treatment-resistant strains of bacteria, and preventing kids' exposure in the healthy doses required to grow a strong immune system.

Yep, that's right, it turns out that regular, old, everyday germs are good for kids. So is regular old dirt, disappointment, boredom, frustration, conflict, and the occasional playground accident. All of these help children to develop their own coping skills, creative and spiritual core, and sense of self.

When parents micromanage children's lives, overly investing themselves in their kids, everyone loses. Mothers and fathers lose themselves in their roles as parents, while kids never find themselves.

So here's my unsolicited advice to parents: take a step back. Relax. Enjoy. Your baby will sleep without an expert consultant coming to your house. Your toddler will eventually leave diapers behind. I promise. The Graco stroller won't mark your child — or you — as a loser.

Let your preschooler play in the dirt, and your kindergartener deal with the classmate who pinches her.

And for God's sake, let the baby figure the spoon out for herself.

©2007 Katie Allison Granju and Nerve Media

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

Kalo Pascha!

Christ is Risen! Indeed He is Risen!

Pascha was lovely as usual (although colder/snowier than usual!!) and exhausting (more than usual, as I caught the Deac's cold 'round about Saturday). And there is no rest this week as we have 2 parties to get ready for. In the meantime, here is an interesting article by actress Rita Wilson (wife of actor Tom Hanks) about her experiences and memories of Pascha. Someday my "cradle Orthodox" children will be able to write something very similar:

Why Easter is Greek to Me: Xristos Anesti!

Once every few years, Greek Easter falls the same week as “American Easter,” as it was called when I was growing up.

In order for “Greek Easter” to be celebrated the same week as “American Easter,” Passover has to have been celebrated already. We Greeks don’t do Easter until after Passover, because how can you have Easter BEFORE Passover. Jesus went to Jerusalem to celebrate Passover, after all. Unless it is one of the years when the two holidays align. Like this year.

Here are some of the things that non-Greeks may not know about Greek Easter: We don’t do bunnies. We don’t do chocolate. We don’t do pastels.

We do lamb, sweet cookies, and deep red. The lamb is roasted and not chocolate, the sweet cookies are called Koulorakia and are twisted like a braid, and our Easter eggs are dyed one color only: blood red. There is no Easter Egg hunt. There is a game in which you crack your red egg against someone else’s red egg hoping to have the strongest egg, which would indicate you getting a lot of good luck.

Holy Week, for a Greek Orthodox, means you clear your calendar, you don’t make plans for that week at all because you will be in church every day, and you fast. Last year, in addition to not eating red meat and dairy before communion, my family also gave up sodas for the 40-day Lenten period.

During one particularly stressful moment, there were many phone calls amongst our kids as to whether or not a canned drink called TING, made with grapefruit juice and carbonated water was, in fact, a soda and not a juice, which our then 10-year-old decided it was, so we had a Ting-less Lent.

No matter where I find my self in the world I never miss Easter, or as we call it, Pascha. I have celebrated in Paris, London, New York City, Los Angeles, and in Salinas, California at a small humble church that was pure and simple.

When we were kids, our parents would take us, and now as parents ourselves we take our children to many of the Holy Week services including the Good Friday service where you mourn the death of Jesus by walking up to the Epitaphio, which reperesents the dead body of Christ, make your cross, kiss the Epitaphio, and marvel at how it was decorated with a thousand glorious flowers, rose petals and smells like incense.

Some very pious people will crawl under the Epitaphio. I have always been so moved to see this. There is no self- consciousness in this utter act of faith. There is no embarrassment to show symbolic sorrow at the death of our Saviour.

At a certain point in the Good Friday service, the Epitaphio is carried outside by the deacons of the church, as if they are pall bearers, followed by worshippers carrying lit candles protected from dripping on your clothes and on others by having a red plastic cup that sits below the flame to catch the wax drippings. Every Greek person knows all too well the smell of burning hair.

One time, in London, I smelled something and turned to look at where the smell might be coming from, only to be horrified that it was coming form me and my head was on fire. But I digress.

It is somber and quiet as we follow the Epitaphio, in candlelight, from the altar to the outdoors, in order for it to circle the church before it returns back to the altar. We sing beautiful lamentations that make your heart break with their pure expression of sadness and hope.

One of my favorite services during Easter is Holy Unction. This happens on the Wednesday of Holy Week. Holy Unction is a sacrament. It is for healing of our ills, physical and spiritual. It is preparing us for confession and communion. This sacrament has always been so humbling to me.

When you approach the priest for Holy Unction, you bow your head and as he says a prayer and asks you your Christian name, he takes a swab of blessed oil and makes the sign of the cross on your forehead, cheeks, chin, backs of your hands and palms. It is a powerful reminder of how, with faith, we can be healed in many ways.

The holy oil is then carefully dabbed with cotton balls provided by the church so you don’t leave there looking as if you’re ready to fry chicken with your face, and before you exit the church, you leave your cotton balls in a basket being held by altar boys, so as not to dispose of the holy oil in a less than holy place. The church burns the used cotton balls.

There have been times when I have left church with my cotton ball and have panicked when I am driving away. At home I take care of it. Imagine a grown woman burning cotton balls in her sink. But that is what I do.

Midnight Mass on Saturday night, going into Sunday morning is the Anastasi service. We will arrive at church at around 11 p.m., when it starts, and listen to the chanter as he chants in preparation for the service. My kids, dressed in their suits and having been awakened from a deep sleep to come to church, groggily sit and wait holding their candles with red cup wax catchers.

As the service progresses, the moment we have all been waiting for approaches. All the lights in the church are turned off. It is pitch black It is dead quiet. The priest takes one candle and lights his one candle from the one remaining lit altar candle, which represents the light of Christ’s love ( I believe).

From this one candle, the priest approaches the congregation and using his one candle he shares his light with a few people in the front pews. They in turn share their light with the people next to them and behind them. In quiet solemnity, we wait until the entire church is lit with only the light of candles, the light that has been created by one small flame has now created a room of shared light.

And at a moment that can only be described as glorious, the priest cries out, “Xristos Anesti!” “Christ is Risen!” We respond with “Alithos Anesti!” “Truly, He is Risen!” We sing our glorious Xristos Anesti song with the choir. That moment, which happens about an hour, to an hour and half into the service and seems as if the service is over, actually marks the beginning of the service. The service then continues for another hour and a half.

When I was a kid, after the service was over, we would go to the Anastasi Dinner that the church would throw in the church hall, where we would break our fast, drink Cokes at 2:30 in the morning, dance to a raucous Greek band and not go home until our stomachs were full of lamb, eggs, Koulouraki, and we saw the sun rise. Or was it the Son rise?

But usually now, after Midnight Mass, we drive home with our still-lit candles. I always love seeing the looks on peoples faces as they pull up to our car seeing a family with lit candles calmly moving at 65 m.p.h. down the highway. When we get home, we crack eggs, eat cookies, drink hot chocolate (so not Greek) and I burn a cross into our doorways with the carbon from the candle smoke to bless our house for the year.

There have been many times when painters touching up the house have wondered why there was this strange black cross burned into our doorways. The next day is usually followed by a late sleep in, then getting up and doing the same thing you just did but in the daytime at the Easter Picnic, usually held at a local park.

I have to say, the Greeks know how to do Easter. Make no mistake. This is the most important holiday in our church. It is a beautiful week. I haven’t even begun to touch on what the week is really like. This is a sampling of a sampling of what it is like. It is so much more deep, so much richer than I have written here.

But one thing is clear. It is a powerful, beautiful, mysterious, humbling, healing and moving week. It is filled with tradition and ritual. It is about renewal and faith. And even though it is still too early to say, Xristos Anesti! Alithos Anesti!

Actress Rita Wilson, whose mother and father both were born in Greece, is widely credited with landing Nia Vardalos a movie deal for "My Big Fat Greek Wedding." Wilson and her actor husband Tom Hanks had their own "Big Fat Greek Wedding" in 1988. They have two children.

Friday, April 06, 2007

Remembering my Dad



My father died on Great and Holy Friday last year, so today seems more like the anniversary to me than the calendar date. I've been thinking a lot about him and how our holy week and Pascha went last year. I guess I'm still processing through the stress that was last year, with his death and the funeral followed closely by the Deac's illness.

Anyway, I decided to go through all the digital photos I have of my Dad on my hard drive and scrap them today as a way to remember him.

And now I'm off to the Great Friday Burial (of Christ) service. Seems appropriate. I hope everyone has a blessed and good Pascha/Easter!

Wednesday, April 04, 2007

Two new layouts

I finally found some time to scrap last night and today! So I'll just post briefly what I came up with and then I must get caught up on some things.

Here's one with that photo of Maura and her candle on Palm Sunday (one of my favorite photos). The wordart is from a wordart challenge at Digitals.
Full credits are HERE.

And here's one using another of Amy's terrific "Flora Maura" templates. Maura grew this grass in her toddler II room and was so excited to bring it home! I really hope it thrives in the backyard.

Full credits HERE.

Tuesday, April 03, 2007

Happy Birthday to my baby!

Well, I tried to get back on and post yesterday afternoon, but blogger was acting up. At any rate, my baby successfully turned THREE years old yesterday. I am a little melancholy about it, actually - at the idea of not having a baby or toddler anymore. But not melancholy enough to have another one. Heh.

Here's my sweetie ready to go off to school after opening presents yesterday. Really, it seems like Maura just sprouted overnight into a full-fledged child with a full-grown sense of what she wants to go with it (I'd forgotten how independent 3-year-olds become).

Happy birthday, baby!

In other news, we had a very busy and exhausting weekend. On Saturday we went to the annual teaching liturgy that our priest does. This is always a really enlightening service. It's neat to see the things and hear the prayers we normally don't get to see because the clergy do them away from the people. It's also nice to be able to ask questions about different things. The kids were full of energy, but seemed to enjoy it, as well. Then it turned out that there were a lot of things that needed to be fixed up to prepare the church for Palm Sunday and so it ended up being a full work-day. It was tiring, but we got to hang out with friends and visit some, too, which was nice. Then Sunday, of course, was Palm Sunday. This year the Eastern calendar for Pascha coincides with the Western calendar for Easter. Palm Sunday is a HUGE event in Arab lands. I've been told that on Palm Sunday even muslims go to church in Arab countries. So it is the biggest day of the year, attendance-wise, for our parish. And this year was no different. With beautiful weather, everyone came out of the woodwork for the liturgy. Since it was so crazy I didn't even try to bring a cake for coffee hour to celebrate Maura's birthday. And it turned out that was good because 4 other people were celebrating their birthdays, too! There was plenty of cake and celebrating to go around. Here's some photos of the girls on Palm Sunday:

So this week is Holy Week - we have lots of services to attend (the Deac more so than the kids and I) and traditional foods to prepare for Pascha! There is a traditional Russian dish called Kulich (a sweet bread) and Cheese Pascha (a sweet cheese spread for the kulich) that I make every year. A few years ago I figured out how to make the kulich in the bread machine and that is great (though not traditional!). This year, the Deac wants me to figure out how to make the cheese pascha with Splenda or something to make it low-carb. We might be asking for the moon, but I'm willing to give it a try.

In other news, Emmelia lost her second tooth yesterday! It's been loose for a while and when I got to daycare yesterday she had me feel it and I was able to just pull it out easily. So the tooth fairy left her one of the new President-series dollar coins and, at Emmelia's request, left her tooth there under her pillow as well. She apparently wants to save them. So I need to get her a nice treasure box of some sort to store her teeth in - they make such things, but maybe we'll make one.

Monday, April 02, 2007

Extended breastfeeding

As of today (more about that later - with photos!) I'm officially tandem nursing two "big kids" - a 3 year old and 5 year old. I never expected to be still nursing at this point, but I'm glad it's worked out this way.

Appropriately, the Boston Globe had an excellent article about this very topic on Saturday:

Supply and demand

Evidence suggests more women are breast-feeding their children until they're toddlers and older -- and they're not just earth-mother stereotypes

On a recent Saturday evening, Ruth Tincoff and Bruce Inglehart of Wellesley had a party for Gwen, their not-quite-5-year-old daughter. They served six squealing girls squiggly pasta with red sauce and Gwen's favorite dessert -- vanilla cake with raspberry - and - lemon frosting. While the adults munched on veggies and dip, the girls played dress-up.

Gwen's birthday is coming up in April, but this wasn't an early celebration. This was Gwen's weaning party.

"Just before I cut the cake, I said, 'We are here to celebrate Gwen's important decision.' Everybody already knew what it was, so that was pretty much it," Tincoff says matter-of-factly.

Few children have weaning parties, let alone at such an advanced age. Even though there is wide acceptance nowadays of nutritional and immunological benefits of breast-feeding for infants, Americans, by and large, look askance at mothers who nurse toddlers, preschoolers, or even kindergartners. Anecdotal evidence suggests there are more of them than ever, however, and they aren't just earth-mother types in Birkenstocks who homeschool their children. Tincoff, for instance, works full time as a visiting assistant professor at Wellesley College. She also had not expected to be nursing Gwen until she was nearly 5.

"Gwen wasn't a big fan of eating," she says. At first, she stayed with it to give Gwen the nutrition she needed. Then it became part of their relationship and a way to comfort her daughter. "It helped Gwen to manage her emotions. If she was cranky or had a tantrum, nursing helped restore her," Tincoff says.

Figures from the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention and from Abbott Labs' Ross Mothers Survey show a steady increase in the number of women who initiate breast-feeding, from 57 percent in 1994 to 72 percent in 2005. Less well-known is the gradual increase in the age at which breast-feeding stops. In 1997, 26 percent of mothers were still nursing their babies at six months; in 2005, 39 percent were. In 1997, 14.5 percent of mothers were still breast-feeding at 12 months; by 2005, the number had climbed to 20 percent.

No one keeps count beyond 18 months, not even La Leche League International, a lactation support system. Katherine Dettwyler , the nation's leading breast-feeding researcher, says women who continue to nurse typically keep quiet about it, sometimes even to family members, because the culture is so biased against it.

"People say, 'Oh, he's going to think he's having sex with his mother!' " she says. "Well, no. Only if you socialize him to think that way. This is a biological process. Human beings are wired to naturally wean sometime after 2 1/2."

"Nursing an older child is no longer uncommon, but women know people today tend to be judgmental and feel free to share their opinions," says Heather Bingham of Arlington, a La Leche leader for nine years. Gail Levy, an international board-certified lactation consultant with the Center for Early Relationship Support at Jewish Family and Children's Services, says she sees more women weaning after 12 months.

"We call these women 'closet nursers,' " says Dr. Ruth Lawrence , a pediatrician who specializes in infant nutrition at the University of Rochester. Lawrence, who chairs the American Academy of Pediatrics' section on breast-feeding, helped write the academy's 2005 position statement that reaffirms breast-feeding for at least a year and "beyond for as long as mutually desired by mother and child." The World Health Organization's recommendation, adopted in 1979, is for a minimum of two years.

Tincoff says she knows at least 10 women who are nursing preschoolers; all the girls at Gwen's party had recently weaned or are still nursing. Amanda Lappen of Jamaica Plain, who nurses her 19-month-old twins, says she knows 20 women who nurse children older than hers. Wendy Bosland of North Attleborough, whose third child, Henry, stopped breast-feeding this winter at 5 1/2, says she sees many more women now who nurse long term than 11 years ago when she nursed her first child.

Public health campaigns account for the increase in women who breast-feed, says Lawrence. Those who stay with it, particularly beyond 18 months, tend to be highly educated. "This is not a cult," she says. "It's about education and learning that the benefits persist." Research shows that breast-feeding provides continued protection against infection and allergies.

There is also the matter of the mother-child relationship. For a working mother who is separated from her child all day, nursing in the morning and at night is a loving way to reconnect, says Naomi Bar-Yam of the Massachusetts Breastfeeding Coalition.

Bar-Yam points out that breast-feeding a 3-year-old is very different from breast-feeding a 3-month-old. Nursing lasts only a few minutes instead of 20 or 30, and typically happens once or twice a day, not six or more times. An advantage of nursing an older child is the ability to communicate. Mara Rest of Wayland, who weaned her 5-year-old last August and still nurses her 2 1/2-year-old, likes that she can tell her son, "This isn't a good time. How about when we get home?"

The ability to set boundaries on nursing is one characteristic of a healthy nursing relationship, says Dr. Jane Morton, a pediatrician who is a clinical professor at Stanford Medical School as well as a member of the AAP breast-feeding section.

"There are no medical or psychological reasons not to nurse long term," she says. "It's frowned on in the US because the breast has become so highly sexualized." She says it's a myth to think that a child who nurses long term will not develop autonomy.

There is not unanimous agreement on this. Some professionals support the notion that breast-feeding beyond a certain point can create an unhealthy dependency on the mother. But Texas psychologist Linda Sonna of the American Psychological Association says there is growing recognition that it's best to let the child determine when she's ready to wean. Many children "may not be ready until 5, 6, or even later," says Sonna, who has written many parenting books including "The Everything Toddler Book."

"There's no reason to think it is abnormal or pathological or sick," says Nancy Holtzman , board-certified lactation consultant at Isis Maternity parenting programs in Arlington, Brookline, and Needham.

Norma Jane Bumgarner, author of "Mothering your Nursing Toddler," says women who experience hostility often are those who invite criticism. "Especially with older children, a person has to think about what she wants to deal with," she says.

Rest says she was very private about nursing because she sensed that even her husband, Dan Balter, was a little squeamish. If that's true, Balter says, he's over it now. Last week, when they were at a computer store, Rest disappeared to a corner to discreetly nurse 2 1/2-year-old Joachim. Balter didn't think twice about dragging the salesman over so they could ask her opinion. "He didn't bat an eyelash, and neither did I," Balter says.

When long-term nursers wean, they usually do so gradually.

Last fall, Tincoff's bedtime nursing disappeared because she was teaching at night, so Gwen and her father created a new bedtime ritual of bath and book. Months later, when days might go by without the morning nursing, Tincoff asked Gwen, "Do you want to be done with mama-milk? I'm OK with that if you are." She was.

Contact Barbara Meltz at meltz@globe.com.

Thursday, March 29, 2007

Snow

One of the things I love about Colorado is that you can have 70 degree weather one day and snow the next. We've got a lovely spring storm going here, but so far it doesn't seem to be blizzard-like (knock on wood).

My Silly Bean layout got named as Layout of the Week at SOTB! Very cool.

Yesterday I found a wealth of fun Curious George related activities at the publisher's website. I think we are going to make little monkey masks (and either put hats on the masks or make yellow hats) for the kids at Maura's party. How fun! I'm getting excited about it - I think it will be a fun day.

Well, off to get some work done.

Tuesday, March 27, 2007

Flora Maura

Not much going on - just trying to get caught up at work and in my review class. But I just realized I never posted this layout I did a while ago with my "Pretty in Purple" photo of the kids. It's using a new set of templates by Amy (Doodleboogs) that she made specifically with me in mind - they are called "Flora Maura."

I decided to e-mail out the BBQ invites today so they actually arrive before everyone gets busy with Holy Week next week. And we're still trying to decide who to invite from Maura's daycare class to her party. We'd like to keep it smaller, but it's hard to only pick out a few kids from the class of 12. They all play nicely together. Part of the problem is that many of them have siblings that are Emmelia's friends, so of course we'd like to include them, too (Maura specifically says she'd like "Emmelia's friends" to be there), but that sure makes the number running around in our house grow quickly! It also makes us wish we had a different decor than "college eclectic." But there's no fixing that right now.

I think we're pretty much ready for Easter at this point - Palm Sunday dresses and shoes are waiting in the closet and Easter basket gifts have been purchased and hidden away. I would kind of like to make each girl a pysanky this year as I have in previous years, but I'm not sure that's actually going to happen. This Saturday is known as "Lazarus Saturday" in the Orthodox Church and every year our priest does a "teaching liturgy" for the kids (the adults learn a lot, too). Everything comes out of the altar (normally it's hidden behind the iconostasis) and we get to see exactly what is happening behind the scenes during a liturgy and discuss the significance of it. It's a fun day. That afternoon I'll help the girls decorate some candles for us to carry in the procession on Palm Sunday and we might bake some cupcakes to take to coffee hour to celebrate Maura's birthday. I can't believe she is going to be 3 in only six days!

Friday, March 23, 2007

Friday

I have no idea what it is about this kit that is so inspiring to me this week. I can't remember ever making 3 layouts in a row with the same kit. This one just really pushed a creative button in me, though - and apparently it's a quirky one. I haven't don't much "quirking" but today I decided to play around with my perspective tool and see what I came up with. It's kind of interesting. I can't wait to put these 3 layouts in the galleries next week and see what sort of comments I get. I really like this song by Paul Simon - it's on the "Surprise" album I got for Christmas.

We don't have a lot planned this weekend. Emmelia is doing another round of the Suzuki teacher continuing ed workshop and, other than church, we'll probably stick around the homestead and clean up a bit. It's supposed to be a bit cooler and rainy tomorrow, so it'll be a good day to get things done inside. Have a great weekend!

Thursday, March 22, 2007

Just a quick note

Just posting quickly, mainly to show off the two layouts I made this week with my friend Christine's new March Into Spring kit. It will be in the store at SBE on Sunday, but since I'm on her CT, I get to use it now! It is SO fun! Here's what I've created this week:

































This week I also started looking around the forums more at DigiShop Talk and guess what? I get to sport one of these in my signature now (how cool is that?):
I'm kicking around the idea of starting a blog to do tutorials and build a community of people who use the Gimp for digiscrapping. I think that would be great, even though it would be a pretty small group of people that are interested.

Today Emmelia had her second morning violin lesson. For the past year+, we've had evening lessons after work one night a week. Finally, her teacher decided one thing that is holding her back is how TIRED she is at the end of the day. So we switched to early morning and so far, so good. It's looking like she's going to play her first solo at the May recital! I'm so excited about that.

I had a follow-up with my ortho today and he says my foot is doing really well for 3 months out. I was a little worried since I still limp a little and there is still some swelling and ankle and heel pain. But, apparently that's normal. He did give me a referral to do a little physical therapy, too, so that should help things continue to heal.

Tomorrow I *must* do some Health Physics review.

Well, time to run... have a great night!

Tuesday, March 20, 2007

Quick scraps

My friend Christine made a beautiful quickpage with her equally beautiful "A Bit of Hope" kit and gave it out as a freebie in this month's newsletter from Scrapbook-Elements. I knew immediately it was perfect for that photo of Maura at NCAR. Isn't the page pretty? I love the stitched flowers. I've actually had this kit downloaded for a while, but it's so pretty that I feel completely intimidated by it. It was nice to "get my feet wet" with it a little using the quickpage. Full credits can be seen HERE.
And, I listened to my Mom (!) and made the photo of Maura a little bigger on her invitation like she suggested. Thanks, Mom - I like how it looks. Now to get over the fear of having 15-20 two and three year olds (okay, a few are older siblings) in my HOUSE for 2 hours! I need to find some good activities to keep them busy. But I still have a few weeks for that. We had Emmelia's 3rd birthday at McDonald's for this very reason. But, we're trying to model healthier living, and so McDonald's is out. Besides, Maura wanted to have the party at her house. I guess I don't necessarily have to invite her entire daycare class, but they are all friends so it's hard to choose just a few. AUUUUUGGGGHHHH! Okay, I feel better now. We can handle it.

The nice thing is, the house *should* be clean from our annual Bright Week (the week after Pascha/Easter) BBQ. Normally we have it on Friday of that week and have a huge bash, but there is a giant fundraiser dinner/dance happening that night for some of the Denver-area parishes and we don't want to compete too much. So this year we moved it to Wednesday and decided to keep it a lot smaller than in the past. We'll probably just invite a few other clergy couples and keep it casual. Here's the invite I designed for that:


It gave me an excuse to use the "Dinner Party" kit from Shabby Princess. I need to get all these invites printed out and delivered! The dates will sneak up on us at the rate this year is flying by...

Monday, March 19, 2007

A belated Happy St. Patrick's Day!

We had a busy weekend. On Friday I took the day off and joined a friend and her son to take the girls to the Children's Museum in Denver. It was a fun day for all of us. Here's a photo I took of the girls in the Fire Department exhibit at the museum:

Then on Saturday Emmelia was a sort of "example student" for a continuing ed class for local Suzuki violin instructors. It was a lot of fun - she joined about 4 other kids her age/level and we learned a few new tricks. We might get to do it again next Saturday, too. After that, we drove to NCAR in Boulder to meet some folks the Deac knows who are visiting from Pennsylvania. We hiked a little ways up the trail (I couldn't go too far on my sore tendons) to show them the beautiful panoramic views. The girls were really into hiking, so hopefully we'll get out some more this summer. I managed to get a great photo of Maura sitting on a rock at NCAR.

The weather was absolutely gorgeous this weekend. Perfect for spending a day walking around and sight-seeing.

After that, we all went down to the Pearl Street Mall and had lunch. Since it was St. Patrick's Day, the Mall was packed with revelers and street performers. When we got there, Emmelia asked if we were at the circus. Hee. Well, sort of, I guess.... I made a scrapbook page about it today using some new templates my friend Amy created. Full credits are HERE.
I haven't gotten a chance to play around some more with Maura's invitation, but I should get on that and get the invitations out soon!

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

Pretty in Purple

Okay, I admit it. I secretly do get a kick out of dressing my kids in matching outfits. I sometimes roll my eyes at other people who do it. But, you know, it's actually kind of fun to do now, before they get old enough to rebel against it. And, hey - the'll need *something* to talk about in therapy, right? Here's a great photo I took of the girls this morning in some new shirts I picked up at Target yesterday. I actually think it's the best photo I've ever taken of them together:
I have been working on putting together an invitation to Maura's birthday party. I am thinking of having a Curious George theme for her. She loves Curious George and is just very Curious-George-like herself. I mean, I don't think a "Danger Mouse" theme would go over very well. This year, Maura's birthday falls on Monday of Holy Week. Let me tell you, Holy Week is a BUSY time for Orthodox Christians. So, we will be delaying her party until the Saturday after Pascha this year. I doubt she'll mind all that much since 3 year olds (can you believe she's going to be THREE?) don't have a great sense of time. Anyway, I'm trying to combine the Curious George thing with Maura's favorite color (purple) on the invites. It's a bit challenging, but I'm sure it will all come together.

Here's what I have so far - obviously the party information will go in the purple box. What do you think?

Friday, March 09, 2007

Ah, Spring

Ah, spring. With it's warm, sunny weather and flowers promising to come up out of the ground and bloom soon. The bacteria and viruses floating around.... ugh. I actually love spring. But right now, with me on antibiotics for a finger infection and Maura starting her 2nd script of antibiotics in as many months yesterday for a bad ear infection... that is the part of spring I don't like. I'm still keeping my (healthy) fingers crossed that this ear infection will be the worst we get from the RSV and pneumonia bugs around the daycare.

I made a layout yesterday! When I was looking for elements for my "unique" layout below, I came across this quickpage I'd downloaded last fall. I decided it was perfect to scrap the Natalie MacMaster concert that Emmelia and I went to last fall. I've been struggling with how to put that together. So I dressed up the page a bit with some photos downloaded from the internet and went crazy with my blending modes. It was fun and I like how the layout came out. Full credits can be seen in my gallery at Digitals.

Wednesday, March 07, 2007

A little scrappin'

Slowly, but surely I'm getting back into the mood to scrap. I am trying out some new techniques and trying to use more items from my "stash" of freebies and kits I've downloaded. I don't want to just collect cool digital files and store them. The point is to use them, right? Usually, though, I have one layout going at a time and finish it before I start another. Right now, I've got about 5 started and don't like how any of them are turning out so I don't know if I'll try to fix them or just start over with something new.

One of the best purchases I've ever made is a handy portable external harddrive to store all my digiscrap files on. It is a 60 GB drive, so it should hold quite a few photos, layouts, and kits. I am good about backing up the digital photographs and scrap layouts, but I should do better with saving the freebies and kits. Anyway, I really like how this layout came out. Full credits are here.

One good thing about Lent is it gets me thinking about spiritual things a bit more. Lately I've been thinking about the woman who visited Jesus just before he was crucified and annointed his feet with oil. We read about her many times over in the prayers before Holy Communion. She was a prostitute and, when she learned where Jesus was staying, she went out and purchased oil (very expensive, so this would've been a sacrifice for her) and came to where he was staying and annointed his feet with the oil and her tears. She is an image of repentance for us. What has especially struck me lately is her boldness. I mean, if I were her, my tendency would've been to realize my sinfulness, fall into despair, and go away. She was bold enough to go to our Lord and ask His forgiveness even knowing her sinfulness. There are other stories of people whose salvation and healing were gained by their boldness - like the woman with an issue of blood who reached out and touched the hem of Christ's garments as he was walking through a crowd. It's a good lesson to think about because my natural tendency is meekness rather than boldness in these sorts of situations. I need to flesh out my thoughts on this a little more clearly. Luckily, there are still 4 weeks or so left in Lent...

Tuesday, March 06, 2007

Tuesday

Emmelia had her 3rd violin recital this past weekend. The recitals are nice because they are very low-key. It's basically all the students taught by the same person (plus an occasional extra few). The recitals are not so much to show the parents what the kids know because in Suzuki, the parents are an integral part of the music education. We go to every lesson and take notes and teach the child during each practice. So the recitals are mainly a way to give the kids practice playing in front of other people. They occasionally play solos and the whole group plays every piece they know at each recital. Emmelia was a little nervous before the recital and didn't want to go, but afterwards she told me that she didn't feel at all nervous when she was up in front of everyone playing. What's nice is she's getting used to this at age 5, so that it will never seem like it should be different to her.

We got Emmelia a new violin a couple of weeks ago. We've been renting one, but Southwest Strings had some decent ones on sale for the cost of about 10 months of rentals. Since Em will be in this size violin for another year and then Maura will use it, it made sense to just buy the thing. Southwest Strings has a trade-in program where we can use this violin as a down-payment towards a bigger size if we'd like. Or we could sell it when the time comes. Although I'm sure it will hold a little sentimental value for me.

Here's Emmelia playing "Twinkle Variation A" at the recital. It's not the greatest photo because I was too far away for the flash to work. That's her over on the right in the front row with her fellow pre-Twinklers. This recital is much more casual than the other ones - it's got a western theme, so the kids are encouraged to wear denim and they play more fiddle tunes than classical pieces (the pre-Twinklers played a part on "Pop Goes the Weasel") and then afterwards we all have a chili pot-luck dinner.

It's that time of year where spring allergies are starting to hit, making me tired, and we're hoping to avoid the RSV and pneumonia making the rounds at the daycare. Hopefully we can all stay healthy. I haven't been scrapping much, but am hoping to do more. I just haven't felt all that inspired lately. I did make a layout late last week with some photos from last December:


Other than that, I'm staying caught up at work and trying to catch up in my Health Physics review class. I am walking without a boot now and so far, so good. I still don't have a normal gait, but that seems to be more related to my ankle having been kept still for so long as opposed to my tendons. I'm sure it'll loosen up in a week or so. It's very exciting to be able to walk on my heel for the first time in my life!

Wednesday, February 28, 2007

Whew!

It's been a busy couple of weeks. Work has been crazy because of the flood we had here. But all the carpets have been dried and cleaned and the walls painted and most of our furniture is back where it was to begin with. I only lost a couple of breastfeeding books a friend had returned to me the day before the flood... shouldn't leave things on the floor, I guess.

Last week was a busy one. It seems like Lent is the busiest time of the year for us. And I'm not even talking about the extra church services that happen during Lent - I can't make most of those because of the kids. No, life seems to hit high gear in the spring.

The Deac had a CT scan last week that *finally* showed resolution of the pneumonia! Ten months after he got sick, that part is well. Now we are still working on the nerve issue and my uterine issue and maybe... just maybe... this will be a better year than last.

I have been in a major scrapping rut lately. Not sure why, although the busyness probably contributes. I did manage this layout yesterday. I'm trying to ease back in slowly to get my creative juices flowing again.

Also last week, I took some photos of the Deac in his firefighting garb for an article that is going to be published about him in the magazine of his alma mater. Here are the ones that were my favorites:

I wish sometimes I'd been able to figure out exactly how to become a National Geographic photographer. Along with doctor, astronaut and FBI agent, that was one of my most-hoped-for career choices growing up. I wonder what the girls will end up doing. We are pretty sure Emmelia would make a good lawyer. She has the negotiating skills to do well. Maura? Well, for a while we've figured she'd grow up to be a proctologist. There's a reason for that, but I'll leave it to your imagination.

Only 8 more days in the walking boot. Not that I'm counting down or anything....

Wednesday, February 14, 2007

Valentine's Day

Whew - my mind is reeling from doing problems having to do with air ionization chambers and KERMA. I've never really liked Physics that much, I have to admit. I find it ironic that I'm in a profession based on Physics. Luckily for me, there's enough biology also involved to keep it interesting. Just not in the particular chapter we are covering in my review class this week.

Happy Valentine's Day! The girls made their own valentines this year, as opposed to me digiscrapping them. And that's fine, since I just haven't been in a particularly scrapping mood lately. Here's a photo of what they created:

They had a lot of fun and I was impressed with their creativity! Today they both had Valentine's parties in their daycare classes. If it's anything like last year, the sugar high at pick-up tonight will be amazing.

I took a cute picture of them last weekend playing dress-up:

The Deac came back from his clergy retreat last week feeling refreshed spiritually. He also came bearing many good books for us both! This is good since we generally have a little more time to read during Lent! It's hard to believe it's already Lent again - it begins this coming Monday. The past year seems to have gone past in a blur.

So far, the hormone treatment I started Friday has caused more cramping and pain than before. Sigh. But maybe in a month or two it will settle down and be better. We'll see. Prayers are appreciated.

Friday, February 09, 2007

Scrappin'

Looks like I forgot to post this layout I made for Doodleboogs at SOTB a few weeks ago:
I used her 12x12 Circle Templates #1 and City Love kit, along with elements from a lot of different kits I've collected. It was a fun layout to put together. Besides, with subjects that cute it's hard to go wrong.

I also figured out how to do the slideshows of my Brag Book layouts - I just had to break it up into 4 sections. I had these printed out as 4x6 prints and put into an album for my Mom for a Christmas present. The nice thing about it is that I was also able to print a copy for myself and a copy for my ex-sister-in-law to have since her daughter's year was also featured prominently. This was so fun to do - I may try to do it for this year, too (so, sorry, Mom if it won't be as big of a surprise next year - I'll try not to share the layouts until after Christmas at least). Except this year I'll be smart about it and scrap the layouts throughout the year rather than try to do 36 layouts in just a couple weeks.

Hit the "back" button in your browser after you watch each show so you can come back here and click on another link!

Here is the first slideshow
Here is the second slideshow
Here is the third slideshow
Here is the fourth slideshow

Let me know what you think! I love feedback.

Big week, pt. 2

Yesterday I wore my new makeup and got no less than 5 comments about how nice I looked and how blue my eyes are. That was really nice. I never in a million years would've chosen brown and red eye shadows for me, but the lady at Sephora put them on me and they look great. And they do really bring out the blue in my eyes. Go figure. So, it was a nice confidence builder. Remember that it's hard to get a decent photograph of yourself (plus I look really washed out from the flash) and ignore the fact that I really need a haircut and (according to a co-worker) an eyebrow wax.... and here's my new look:
I saw the Orthopedist about my tendons yesterday. He is really happy with how things are progressing, as am I. But he wants me to keep wearing the walking boot all the time (except when sleeping, showering and driving) for another whole month before I go back to shoes. I'm wondering how I'll walk when I get out of the boot - this foot has never had to walk heel-to-toe before. The Ortho said that if I need to, I can do physical therapy to re-learn how to walk.

Yesterday I also saw my Reproductive Endocrinologist to discuss the MRI results and hysterectomy. Turns out you need to have 4-6 weeks of time off work after a hysterectomy. It's a pretty major surgery. Since I just used up all my time off, we're talking at least six months before I'd be ready to do the surgery. So in the meantime he suggested I try one more option to treat the pain hormonally. There are studies that have shown the particular treatment he suggested is effective for endometriosis pain, but nothing about whether or not it will help with adenomyosis. If it works, it buys us some time to decide on another child or not. If it doesn't work, we'll just go ahead with the hysterectomy in a few months.

We've decided that our work building has been cursed. Plagues are descending upon it. We keep expecting frogs to fall out of the ceiling. Last weekend, a water pipe broke in a wall in one of our offices and wasn't discovered for at least 12 hours since it was the weekend. This caused a flood all over the floor in our office area. So all week long we've been trying to work in really horrid conditions - our offices are in disarray because we had to get everything up off the floor. Loud fans are running constantly to try to dry out the carpet and drywall. They also send wind through the offices, so paper flies everywhere if you don't hold it down. Today we found out the insulation in the outer wall of our offices is still wet, so they are going to have to cut out at least a foot of wall just in time for the next cold snap to hit the state. Really miserable. In addition, one employee in another part of the department got fed up with the stress and quit this week. A student assistant found out he might have cancer. We lost connection to the internet and our local area network for several hours accidentally while the IT guy was out of town. And yesterday, just to add insult to injury, the sewers began backing up (don't forget that all the doors are open and fans are blowing to dry things out). Ugh! What a week, really.

I keep forgetting to mention that I'm taking an on-line course from Colorado State University this semester. It is a review course for the Health Physics exam I'm taking in July. So far it's been a great class, but there is a TON of homework - the week BEFORE the first class session, we had over 300 pages of reading and 50+ physics problems to work. One of the fun things about it being an online course, though, is that I can download the lectures onto my video iPod and watch/listen to them at my convenience. I really like that. So today I'm going to try to distract myself from the loud fan noise by trying to figure out some physics equations! I have the craziest life lately.

Thursday, February 08, 2007

A big week

This past week we were a Nielson family. We received a TV diary in the mail and kept track of all of our TV viewing. I was pleasantly surprised to find that we don't actually watch that much television (or maybe that was because we knew we'd have to keep track of what we watched if we turned it on? No, it wasn't that hard to keep track). I also realized that we use TiVo a LOT. It has really revolutionized our life in that we are no longer slaves to our favorites shows. We can live life and watch what we want, when we want. And fast-forward through commercials. Life has really changed since I was a kid!

Yesterday I went out to Sephora at lunch and got my birthday present. As part of my mini midlife crisis, I decided I needed good makeup. Many, many people recommended the Bare Essentuals makeup by Bare Minerals, so that's what I got. And... I really love it! It is fun, easy, light and looks really natural and good. I have gotten several comments today about how good I look - that's never happened with makeup before. So I'm pretty excited about that.

Today I see the orthopedist for a follow-up on my tendon surgery. I think my foot is doing really well. I am LOVING having a working foot! I think I have to wear the walking boot for another month, but this week I was finally allowed to begin driving again! It is so nice to be fairly autonomous again! Of course, it also means I have a lot of errands to run, like picking up dog food today.

After my ortho appointment, I will head up to the Advanced Reproductive Medicine clinic to see my doctor there. We will be talking about the adenomyosis and possible options. I think we've tried all the treatment options besides hysterectomy, so we'll see what else he has to offer. It is a big appointment as it could be the end of my reproductive days.

Friday, February 02, 2007

Tiring week

This week has been tiring. On Monday, I turned 36 years old. In general, I feel that birthdays are over-rated and this year was no different. Emmelia did make me a cute card while she was at daycare and that was sweet. Actually, 36 seems... not OLD, per se.... just middle aged. I find myself in the midst of a mini-midlife crisis. This age seems like it's suddenly too late to think of going back to medical school and pursuing my real dreams. I have a career. It's a good career and something I'm good at, but it's not the career I really wanted. I'm struggling to come to terms with that. And maybe in another 10 years I'll feel completely differently about the medical school thing - who knows?

On Tuesday I finally got the results from the MRI I had done back in December. The radiologist confirmed that there is adenomyosis in my uterine tissue. So, on the good side, we have a conclusive reason why I've been having such horrible abdominal pain over the past year and a half. On the other hand, the only treatment for adenomyosis is a hysterectomy. Add that in to the midlife crisis and you get a week that has me thinking too much about life. I always wanted to have a third child, but we hadn't decided yet if we were definitely going to have one or not. We were kind of waiting for the Deac to get healthy again and had planned to re-evaluate on Maura's 3rd birthday (April 2nd of this year). But, now God seems to be deciding for us. I am grateful for the two miracles we have, especially because seven years ago, we didn't think we could have any kids. But I guess I was also hoping for more than 6 years of total fertility in my life. As a friend put it, it's hard to move from "I'd like to have another one, but probably won't" to "I definitely can't have another one." Plus, losing a uterus seems like losing something quintessentially defining about being a woman. I know that's silly. By next week, when I talk to the doctor about scheduling this thing, I hope I'll be past most of these thought-humps.

Speaking of humps, we decided the kids need a little help getting over the hump of not wanting to go to sleep at night. Last week I bought a couple of glass jars and some marbles. The kids can earn marbles by doing things like make their beds, go to sleep without getting back up, practicing violin, etc. So far it seems to be going well. It's not the most positive method out there (most practitioners of positive discipline hate the very idea of external rewards/motivators), but I view it as a short-term solution anyway. That should help us get a little more sleep one of these days. Or, at least have evenings again.

Today is the feast of the Meeting of our Lord in the Temple. In Jewish tradition, mothers would bring their babies to the Temple after 40 days (for a boy) or 80 days (for a girl) following the birth. They would present their baby to God along with an offering and become "clean" ritually so that they were able to participate in worship with the community once again. The Orthodox church also has a tradition of the mother staying home with her baby for 40 days (we don't do the difference by gender thing) and then bringing the child to church. In the west, the prayer said by the priest became known as the "churching of women" - they are welcomed back into full church life at that point. I absolutely loved this tradition and practiced it with both girls. It was nice to have those first 40 days to bond, get breastfeeding established, and let their little immune systems get strong before we went into the world. And that time will never come again, so I'm glad I had the opportunity to do it. But today I need to get to thinking about how I'll cover this feast with the kids at Church School on Sunday!

In the meantime, here is a link to an EXCELLENT article on nutrition that was written this week. It is long, but well worth the read.

I'm working on setting up a Photobucket slideshow of the Brag Book layouts I made for my Mom so that I can share them. When I figure it out, I'll post it here.

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

Germs and Teeth (but not together this time)

Well, the evil bug of pukey sickness has finally made it's way around to me today. It slowly worked its way through the whole family over the past week. Yesterday I stayed home with Emmelia and had hopes that I might avoid it... but then it hit around 4 am this morning. Sigh.

Hopefully we didn't infect the tooth fairy when she made her first ever trip to our home! That's right - Emmelia lost her first tooth last night. She was very excited - she's been looking forward to losing a tooth for a couple of years already. The tooth fairy brought her a gold coin (a Sacajawea dollar) and some Pooh rubber stamps. I'm just floored that my baby is old enough to lose a tooth already. I keep asking her to smile for me - isn't it so cute?

Friday, January 19, 2007

Fathers & Daughters

One of the gifts I got for Christmas was the Paul Simon CD "Surprise." I love Paul Simon. And since getting the CD, I've fallen in love with a verse from his song "Fathers & Daughters." It seemed perfect to use on a layout with a photo of a friend of ours and his new daughter I took last summer. I was honored that our friends asked me to be present for Leeza's birth. At the last moment, after a fully un-medicated labor (Leeza's mom was *pushing*).... the doctor discovered the baby was in a frank breech position and little Leeza was safely delivered via emergency c-section. This photo was one of the first taken of father and daughter after her delivery, while mom was still in the operating room. So, I of course had to scrap it and the Paul Simon verse came to mind. The layout itself started out more simple, using a template from Christine Nash and Doodleboog's City Love kit... but then I decided to "free-style" a bit and it got kind of crazy. But (I think) fun, too.

Kinda cool!

My "Beach Paradise" LO got "Layout of the Day" over at Digital Scrapbook Pages (aka Digitals) yesterday! That's very exciting.

The Deac was up all night with the stomach bug Maura had on Wednesday night. We're all dragging a bit and I'm not sure how this will affect our weekend plans. We are hoping we'll all be up to going to the baptism of the son of some dear friends, but we'll have to see how tomorrow morning pans out. I'm keeping my fingers crossed I don't get it, because I can't exactly hop out of bed and run to the bathroom these days......

Thursday, January 18, 2007

How hard can it be?

Today I realized why we shouldn't be worried about the possibility of human cloning: scientists still cannot make a microwave popcorn that pops all the kernals. Really - it's 2007. I think they could do better.

My friend C. is in Costa Rica this week, relaxing on a beach and assuredly enjoying a margarita or two. So it's been fun playing with the new Megalodon kit by my friend Amy. I really love the colors and elements in this kit! I scrapped some of the beach photos from our vacation in the fall of 2005. It made me forget the frigid temperatures outside for just a few minutes, anyway.


My foot is doing much better than even a week ago and I'm encouraged about recovery and having a brand-new foot that will work for the activities in which I'd like to participate. In the meantime, though, I can't do much except sit back and enjoy the DirecTV we had hooked up on Monday. Even with 155 channels, my favorite shows are the same: Northern Exposure, Battlestar Galactica, Doctor Who, Monk, My Name is Earl and The Knights of Prosperity. Soon Eureka will be back on as well. But then will come warmer temps, hopefully melting of some of the GIANT snow piles around the area, and spring evening bike rides with the girls. I can't wait.

Friday, January 12, 2007

Franken-foot

I got my cast off yesterday! YEAY!

My foot looks really quite freaky. It is swollen from the surgery and being compressed in the cast for two weeks, not to mention the 3 incisions the orthopedist made. I got my stitches out yesterday, too, and they gave me a "walking boot" to wear for the next 2 months.

I was looking forward to tossing the crutches to the side, but it turns out that it really HURTS to put your weight down on a newly lengthened tendon.... really, really hurts. So I have to use the crutches for a little support until I get used to the pain and stretching feeling the walking boot provides. Sigh.

Still, I'm very excited that I will soon have a new and functional foot. The doc had me move my foot up yesterday and it moved into a normal 90-degree angle - something my foot has NEVER been able to do. It will be great to be able to be more active with less pain.

Off to rest and take a pain pill...

Tuesday, January 09, 2007

Yeay, a couple layouts!





















Once again, templates come to the rescue in a scrapping slump! Plus, I wanted to make some layouts for the creative teams I'm on. The blizzard layout is made with templates and Snow Wonder kit (soon to be at SBE) by Christine Nash, and the other one is with a template and City Love kit by Doodleboogs. They were both pretty easy to put together. I've tackled some work projects which have been sitting on my desk for a while the past couple of days and also managed to do the layouts.

Only 1.5 more days of crutching around until my cast comes off and I *cannot* wait!

Thanks for the music recommendation, Mom. I've seen him perform on PBS before and have always liked the emotion and vitality he brings to his performances. However, my iPod is already full of terrific violin music.... I may wait to buy any new music in that genre. I did find this album (sorry, I'm not sure how else to link it or how to get the album cover on here)- for me as much as the girls. It's pretty fun. But, I'm still taking suggestions.

One resolution I am hoping to keep this year is to get into a regular exercise routine. I have an elliptical machine at work that I can use again once my tendons heal up. In the past, I've wanted to listen to music while working out but never had a good idea of how to make a playlist that would be at the same energy level as I wanted to work out. But this week I happened upon fitpod.com and their archived mixes as podcasts on iTunes. I subscribed and am excited to see how it goes (did I just say I was excited at the prospect of working out? There must be something wrong with me!).

Friday, January 05, 2007

Happy New Year!

It's been crazy here, what with the eight feet of snow and all....

Last week I had surgery to release and lengthen my Achille's tendon, as well as the tendons on the top of my foot that move my toes. I am really hopeful that this will help me be able to lead a more active life with less pain. Right now it's kind of annoying because I'm on crutches. And, you know, it just keeps snowing and snowing and snowing..... once I get the cast off and can discard the crutches it will be much easier.

I wanted to just post quickly so you all know the blog isn't defunct. I just haven't felt much like sitting in front of a computer lately. This has hurt my digiscrapping, too. I just haven't felt like scrapping much, even. I put a lot of work into a 4x6 "brag book" for my Mom for Christmas (which she seemed to like a lot), but now I'm a little "scrapped out". I'm sure I'll feel more into it next week.

I still have about $50 in iTunes gift certificates I got for Christmas if anyone has any suggestions for what I should download!

Friday, December 22, 2006

We survived!

What a busy month it's been! I had to really buckle down and get an annual report done that is required by regulation to be done by the end of the year. But, I did it! Yeay, me! I have also been working on getting ready for Christmas and for my tendon release surgery next week.

Then this week we were socked by a giant blizzard! It was nice to have 1.5+ days off work, but it's not like I could get that much done. We had fun shoveling and playing with the kids, though. I saw my Russian professor on the news - she was stuck at a park-n-ride near Boulder. How rotten!

I finished Emmelia's Santa Boo-Boo hat! She was excited to get one of her own to wear.

Our brother-in-law didn't make it in from the east coast for our nephew's college graduation today. That's sad, but at least he didn't get stuck in an airport somewhere!

Oh, I promised I'd post our Christmas card here once I mailed them out. Here it is:
We had a lot of fun with the photo shoot and I'm really happy about how it turned out.

One of my friends liked it so much she asked me to design a card for her. I designed 2 for her to choose from. She picked the first one, but both came out cute:















Well, have a Merry Christmas, everyone! Come (very) early Monday morning, we Orthodox will be greeting each other with "Christ is Born!" and resonding with "Glorify Him!"

Monday, December 04, 2006

Santa Boo-Boo

I finished my first knit hat! It was challenging, but fun all the way through. The second Santa hat should go pretty smoothly now that I've figured some things out. Emmelia modeled the hat for me this morning before deciding it was a little too small for her (I'm going to have to make hers the "woman" size instead of "child").

But that's good because her head stretched out the band perfectly for Maura to wear it. And wear it she did - she was so excited. She ran over to the Deac and said "I'm Santa Boo-Boo!" and then proceeded to wear it to daycare. She still had it on when I dropped her off this morning. So, you know, I had to make a layout about it to showcase my friend Amy's new "Imperfect Holiday" kit.


This was my favorite photo of the several of Maura in the hat that I took this morning. Unfortunately, she was reaching for the camera so her hands are in the way. I tried to overcome this distraction by cropping in closely. This also worked well to accentuate those eyes!

Shockingly, I even scrapped a little at home this weekend! I made a 5x7 photo gift for my friend Z. - the one who just had her first baby. It was fun to put together and she really seemed to like it. I sent it home from church with her husband on Sunday.

Wednesday, November 29, 2006

No, really, I'm here...

Sorry, didn't mean to neglect the ol' blog there. I've been having a lot of trouble sleeping lately, which has impacts in every other part of my life! The doc even gave me some meds to help me sleep, which don't seem to help much. Oh well. She actually suggested that sleep can be disturbed by the hormonal activity of endometrial tissue. So next week I'm seeing my RE (reproductive endocrinologist) again to talk about another laparoscopy. Ugh - but it might take care of some of the abdominal pain, at least.

We had a lovely Thanksgiving with our family, my mother and our nephew. The bird was juicy and yummy and we had just enough leftovers. This year we made pies with Splenda baking mix - which is still half sugar, but better than plain sugar. The blueberry pie was acceptable, the pumpkin pie was too sweet, but the pecan pie ROCKED! One might argue that was too many pies for a household with a diabetic, but his blood sugar was reassuringly low following our meal.

My mother gave me my Christmas present early - all the supplies and instructions to knit Santa hats for the kids. How fun! I'm really enjoying working on the first one. I've been wanting to learn to knit hats anyway, and this is the perfect motivation. It's forcing me to learn about circular and double-pointed needles and practice reductions - none of these are necessary with the scarves I've been making.

We took photos for our Christmas cards this weekend and I've got the cards designed and ordered. I'm excited about them! I won't share it here because I don't want to ruin the surpise for those of you who will be receiving our cards in the mail. Maybe I'll post it after I mail them out. But, trust me - CUTE!

It's very snowy here today, which is getting me in the mood for Christmas. In fact, I need to stop on the way home for groceries and to pick up some Angelina Ballerina dolls for the girls for St. Nicholas day next week. This year was the first year Emmelia made a Christmas list. The Angelina dolls (she wants Angelina and Alice - Maura will be getting Alice) were the only decipherable item. I'm sure she'll still enjoy that new bicycle Santa is going to bring her (shh!), though, even if it isn't officially on her list.

Okay, I've been a little out of the scrapping mood what with the not sleeping. But today I put the finishing touches on a layout I've been working on for a while to remember Emmelia's stint doing Tae Kwon Do:
In other news, my friend Z. had her first baby this month after a horrific labor and birth experience. But, thank God, everyone is alive and healthy at the end of things and little C.E. is breastfeeding nicely and generally being cute and cuddly. I took the girls over to visit the day after Thanksgiving. I'm so happy for her to finally have a healthy child after 5 miscarriages!

Well, now I'm off to battle the snow-packed and icy roads. I'm hoping this evening's commute is better than this morning - it took me one hour and 45 minutes to drive the approximately 20 miles from home to work.

Monday, November 20, 2006

So, what are those things for again?

In case you missed it, last week a woman filed a lawsuit against Delta Airlines and one of their partner airlines because she was forced to leave an airplane after refusing to cover up her nursing child with a blanket. For the record, I have nursed many times on airplanes and never had any trouble. But because this woman refused the nasty, germy blanket (& truth be told, most children the age of this child will not *tolerate* a blanket over them on a hot airplane), she was removed from the flight because, apparently, disagreeing with a flight attendant is seen as a terrorist threat these days. God help us!

No surprise, there has been quite the backlash from the pro-breastfeeding community. Nurse-ins have been and are still scheduled to be held at airports around the country (in fact, there's one tomorrow morning at Delta ticket counters if you happen to be at an airport with a nursling - or two - in tow) in an effort to encourage the airlines to educate their personnel on already existing pro-breastfeeding policies, as well as develop more family/breastfeeding-friendly policies for travel.

The Wonderland blog has a great pithy piece on the whole affair - I had to pass it on.

Meanwhile, in my world, I'm still super tired. I actually went to the doctor about it last week and she doesn't think there is anything physically wrong such as anemia or thyroid issues. She does think it might help if I could, say, sleep through the night occasionally!! Imagine that. So we've been working on getting the 2 year old to sleep through. Our efforts paid off last night - she slep for 8 hour straight - almost unheard of for her! Unfortunately, I had developed a bad cold and couldn't sleep. Argh! But there is at least hope for the future if Maura keeps cooperating. Now that she's on antibiotics for her raging double ear infection, she's sure to sleep better (right? Right??).

I only got one layout done last week, but I like it. It's actually a dressed-up quick page put out by Michelle Coleman:


Monday, November 13, 2006

A fun weekend - just the 3 of us

We had a great weekend, even though the Deac was out of town. The girls and I had plenty to keep us busy but also some time to just relax and have fun. It was nice.

Yesterday I taught Church School - Emmelia's teacher is having some family issues and needed a little break so I offered to step in. My goodness, it was fun! I enjoyed the 4-6 year olds very much. I had brought copies of an icon from our icon coloring book of the Creation of Adam, just because it seems like a basic topic and I wasn't sure what they had been talking about. Well, the priest's sermon just happened to include a bit about the creation, so it worked in well. There was a jigsaw puzzle of creation in the classroom, so I gave each child two pieces and they took turns putting a piece in while we talked about what was on it - stars, moon, sky, sun, animals, plants, man, water, fish, etc. Then while they colored their icons I introduced them to a game Emmelia and I play a lot - who created X? She is always asking me... "who created trees?" "God"... "who created houses" "man, with the brains God gave us", etc. So we were playing this a bit and the kids seemed to get it. Then all of a sudden my precocious five year old pipes up: "I have a good one, you guys! Let's ask who created owies?" Ah, my child, that is so much more complicated than I was going to get into yesterday. ;-)

Emmelia did a great job at her violin recital yesterday. I was a bit worried because at rehearsal on Saturday she had refused to play. But yesterday went fine - partly because I had invited their VERY favorite babysitter in the ENTIRE world to be there with us and help me with Maura when I had to escort Emmelia to the stage (which worked *great*!). She wanted to show off what she could do for Miss Ashleigh. Here's some photos - she just keeps looking so grown up to me:


Friday, November 10, 2006

Friday, yeay!

I finally got some decent sleep last night and I am amazed at how much better I feel today! The past week, I've averaged about 3-4 hours of sleep a night and just felt so drained. I was seriously worried that I was clinically depressed - nope, just utterly exhausted. Last night the kids woke up a couple times, but it was manageable, they were easily re-settled and I actually dreamed! It has made all the difference today. Of course, I need about 6 or 7 more nights like that one to really recover!

This weekend Emmelia has a violin recital. She had a lesson last night and was *really* into it - I think because of the Natalie MacMaster concert. Then when we got home, she had a package which turned out to be an autographed photo of Natalie MacMaster with a note wishing her a happy birthday (which I happen to know is from Natalie's mother because I might've sent an e-mail....). She was so very excited to get that photo and hung it up over her bed. We talked about how if she keeps practicing then someday she can play like Natalie MacMaster. All in all, it's nice for her to have a role model in that regard.

So, anyway, we have rehearsal tomorrow for the recital and then Emmelia has a birthday party for her friend who lives across the street. Then church on Sunday and the recital Sunday afternoon. That's our plan. I'm also hoping to get a little housework done and maybe hit the Veteren's Day sale at the fabric store. I just finished knitting my 3rd scarf and I think I'm ready to learn something new - maybe a sweater or hat would be fun.

I've been asked to design a brochure for the kid's daycare in the Gimp so I've been working a bit on that, but also put together this layout today. It was a lot of fun and I like how the swirl connects her mouth and the "wish" so it looks like the breath from her mouth. I used a free digital kit from 2Peas. If you haven't checked out their freebies yet, you are really missing something. I really love this photo and the fact that I caught her in the act of blowing out her candles. Too bad we can't really see her face, though. I'm also going to do a birthday layout showing off more photos, but couldn't resist using this particular photo this way:

Last night I took the kids to Chipotle for dinner after violin. I had a coupon for a free burrito and I ordered my new "healthy" burrito bol... no rice, small amount of black beans, chicken, fajita veggies, mild salsa (& a little corn salsa), cheese and lettuce. This comes out to about 500-600 calories, only 28 grams carbs and 44 grams of protein. And, it is *really* good. And small kid-sized quesadillas are only 75 cents! I'm really digging Chipotle lately. So last night's dinner cost me a little over $3 for all 3 of us. Can't beat that!

This week I've had horrible PMS. That's interesting news in a way, since I didn't expect to maintain any sort of cycle regularity after I went off the hormone treatment. My doctor once told me my "body has no rules" and he's right. It's always an adventure waiting to see what it will do. Anyway, raging PMS (which has probably contributed a lot to the exhaustion)... I decided to research some good ways of dealing with the symptoms. I've already made better nutrition choices and cut out (for the most part) caffeine, so I needed some other ideas to help. First off, Pamprin. I've never used it before but a co-worker highly recommended it and it rocks. Secondly, Omega 3 oils. I've been using (for the past month or so) Udo's Choice Omega 3,6,9 oil every day. I missed Sunday and Monday this week, and let me tell you, I saw a huge difference! Thirdly, dark chocolate. I found these amazing dark chocolate sticks at the grocery store - only 60 calories each and all the goodness of chocolate for those hormonal cravings. The other thing that is supposed to help is exercise. I'm sure it does, but I've been too tired to give it a try this week. I just thought I'd share because I know I'm not alone in my suffering.

Tuesday, November 07, 2006

Pirate Pumpkins Say Arrrr

Boy, I've just been *tired* lately! Haven't even felt like scrapping much lately. Of course, there's been a lot going on, too.

Anyway, my friend Amy (Doodleboogs at SOTB) posted this challenge last week after she saw the photos of our Potato Head pumpkins here on my blog. She wanted us to use the pumpkin photo and make a quirky/doodly layout. Now, I love quirky and doodly layouts, but I have not been able to figure them out. I would *love* to learn that style, but haven't managed it yet. So I've been thinking some about this challenge, and here's what I came up with:
It's more quirky than doodly, but was fun to put together. The best part of making it was that I was able to use the graphics tablet I got for Christmas last year. I really need some remedial drawing instruction, though - it's a lot harder to draw a ship than I thought it would be.

Go ahead, leave a comment. I won't be offended if it's just laughing at my rudimentary doodling skills.

Oh - and don't forget to go vote today. The polls are open for another 2 hours.

Monday, November 06, 2006

Milestone successfully celebrated!


Emmelia's party went really well this weekend - it was so much fun! I'm sore from all that bouncing, but it was worth it. We ended up with 28 kids there! It wasn't as much of a zoo as you might think - the place is prepared for that many and good at helping round them all up. Everyone seemed to have a good time.

Yesterday we also had a cake to celebrate at coffee hour at church. Stupidly, I signed us up to provide food for coffee hour as part of this. What was I thinking? First off, it's a lot of people to provide food for and not all that cheap. Secondly, it all falls to ME and me only because I don' t have a large extended family to help and the Deac is busy with the service. Plus, I still have to care for the kids while getting things ready. I tried to round up some help with bringing food yesterday, but the people who said they would bring salad and fruit forgot - sigh. It was a frustrating experience for me (and I have already said I'm never signing up for coffee hour again), but Emmelia seemed to enjoy the celebration part, so that is good and most important.

The Natalie MacMaster concert was a total blast! Emmelia got to dance along to the music (encouraged by the performer) by our seats and once or twice I caught her moving her arms like she was bowing along with Natalie on her fiddle. Natalie also did a bit of Irish clog dancing, and Emmelia thought that was really neat. It was a great educational experience for Emmelia... she had to be quiet in the auditorium and also learned just how long the line can be for the women's restroom at an event like that. We stayed through the first half and decided to leave during intermission. It was 9 pm and it had been a long weekend. And I *really* didn't want to carry her down the hill to the car in the dark.... so we left while we were both happy, which is probably the best time to leave.

Friday, November 03, 2006

Happy big 5!


My miracle baby is five years old today. It makes my head spin, really, how fast the time has flown. She suddenly seems very grown up to me (recent tantrums notwithstanding). This morning she opened gifts and had her picture on a local news channel (we missed it, unfortunately). Today she'll have cupcakes with her school mates and tomorrow - the big party with 20-30 (!) of her closest friends and coffee hour on Sunday.... lots of celebrations for this milestone event.

My little big girl - may God grant you many, many years!

On Sunday Em and I are going to the Natalie MacMaster concert! I am looking forward to that, too.

Random thought from my drive to work this morning: I was behind a car with a bumper sticker that said "Annoy a Conservative: Live Like Jesus" and I thought... would Jesus put that bumper sticker on His car?

Wednesday, November 01, 2006

Trick or Treat (ToT)!


Trick or Treating (ToTing) went well last night, even if the kids were pretty tired after our quick trip out. They are still adjusting to the time change. We're developing a fun tradition of ToTing with Emmelia's friend R. and her friend K. from across the street. We had a fairy princess, a house (clever costume!), a witch, and two pumpkins. Maura really seemed to *get* it this year, even if she was continually 1-2 houses behind the big girls on the ToT circuit. My girls had of course ToTed at daycare and came home with HUGE bags of candy. It was a candy bonanza. Really, I feel sorry for their daycare teachers today with all these kids coming off last night's sugar high. I'm thinking of getting rid of our leftovers (and secretly some of their extra) at coffee hour at church on Sunday. The only problem with that plan is I'm sure I won't be the only one with that idea... oh well. Maybe it will reduce the stash a bit. Frankly, the Deac and I don't need the temptation.

Speaking of the Deac, the Nerve Conduction Study went well yesterday. From my perspective, it was really *cool* (I'm such a science geek); from his, it was uncomfortable. But they were able to rule out any neuropathy, diabetic or otherwise, so that was TERRIFIC news! The doc (who, by the way, was really good - we liked him a lot better than the old physiatrist) tracked the problem to extra signal (a sort of "short circuit") from the nerves coming out of the lumbar spine - you know, exactly how the Deac has described his symptoms from the beginning of this debacle. We seem to have dodged another bullet. I'm hoping the shooting lets up soon.

Tuesday, October 31, 2006

Happy Halloween!

Hope everyone has a safe and happy holiday! We had a lovely visit with my mom this weekend. In fact, mom took this great photo of the girls and me after we had decorated our pumpkins on Sunday (I'm anxiously awaiting the full resolution version of this and other photos she took so I can scrap them!):
If you have a chance to send some prayers and positive thoughts to the Deac, he is undergoing a nerve conduction study today to try to find out more about his parasthesia symptoms. We're also meeting his new spine doctor today and hoping he's the type of doc who is willing to try to figure out what is going on (his old doc was too quick to categorize and didn't seem interested in trying to find solutions - which seems antithetical to the idea of being a doctor, if you ask me).

Friday, October 27, 2006

Friday - again?

It seems like there was something I was going to blog about today, but now I can't think of it. I really do wonder when I'll get the brain cells back I lost during childbirth. Maybe when full nights of sleep return. Although I have to say last night was lovely. The Deac and I went out to a dinner with the bishop for area clergy and wives. It was so nice to see everyone - we had a great time! I even managed a fairly low-carb dinner: steak, steamed broccoli and a glass of wine. No rolls or dessert. I would've liked a salad, but somehow the salad course never got served. Oh well. While we were gone, the girls had their very favorite sitter in the whole world staying with them. We got home around 10 pm and I expected both girls to still be awake and owl-y. Turns out Ashleigh got them to sleep! On her own! At around 8 pm!! Wow. And on top of that, Maura only woke one time to nurse last night. Normally she wakes many times a night. So I should feel more rested today....

Emmelia has her last soccer game tomorrow and we're hoping she'll actually play. Grammy is coming up for the weekend, so that might provide some impetus and encouragement. We'll see.

Anyway, I was excited to finally get some scrapping done after a week of being too swamped to do any. Here's one layout I actually made last week but hadn't posted yet (the Christmas one from last year) and then the two I did this week of our trip to the Pumpkin patch and Maura's new nickname. Most of these use kits and elements by my friend Christine Nash. The Christmas one was made with a template by Christine, but a kit by Microferk Designs. The pumpkin patch one was done with a template made by a fellow Colorado digi-scrapper, Melinda Staley. She shares my problem with taking a lot of photos and desire to showcase as many as possible on a LO. I really liked using it for the Pumpkin patch photos because it really helps give an idea of how the day went.



Monday, October 23, 2006

Holy Chipotle, Batman!

I eschewed my nutritious low-carb packed lunch today to join a co-worker at Chipotle. But at least I tried to make good choices in terms of picking a "bol" over a burrito, etc. This afternoon, I got curious what I had really eaten in nutrition terms and found this Chipotle nutrition calculator on a website. Suffice it to say, I ate way too many carbs. And calories. And fat. Sigh. At least it tasted good. So... in the future, instead of my "regular" Veggie Fajita Burrito with salsa, cheese, sour cream, guac and lettuce I'll be ordering something much more spartan. Perhaps a Chicken Fajita Bol (no rice) with salsa, cheese and lettuce. Unfortunately, I still have to pay $7 for the slimmed down version, but it still might be a nice occasional splurge.

Speaking of spending money and occasional splurges... we took the kids to the pumpkin patch yesterday after church. Instead of going to the one we went to last year that was reasonably priced but didn't have a lot of activities other than pumpkin picking, we decided to visit the place Emmelia's class went on a field trip last week. She loved it and Maura wanted to visit and do all the things she had heard her big sister talk about. It was fun, if more expensive than we'd planned. Since we only do it once a year, it's not a big deal. But we will still have to buy some pumpkins at the supermarket, since we only came home with gourds. Maura's very favorite part was riding the barrel train. She wanted to do it so badly and when the time came to load up, she insisted on riding in her own car.

Thursday, October 19, 2006

Awards lunch

Today we had an Awards lunch at work as a sort of motivation-building morale booster. It was fun, and we had a catered lunch from Qdoba, which was yummy. I received the "Smart is Only Half the Battle Award" with the following write-up:

She has been described as a stabilizing force and a straight to the point problem solver. Her sharp tongue, quick wit, and extensive technical knowledge make some regard her as a possible genius. She also does an amazing job of balancing a busy personal life with her professional responsibilities, and has the patience of a saint.

I'm not sure about the "patience of a saint" part. I think that's something I am always working toward, though. My father confessor says that when there is something we ask God to help us with, He tends to give us lots of opportunities to practice! But "possible genius" - POSSIBLE? Hee - just kidding.

Since the Deac works in the same department as me now, he also got an award. I don't have his write-up in front of me but his award title was "Captain Amazing." I'm sure that won't go to his head... but now I have a fun nickname for him. It's a shout-out to one of our favorite movies of all time - "Mystery Men"

Mom-Daughter Fiddling date

I'm so excited! I just reserved tickets for Emmelia and I to go see Natalie MacMaster in concert at CU in a couple of weeks! I love folk and celtic music anyway, and fiddling in general. And it will be such an encouragement for Emmelia to see a female musician playing the violin well. It will give her an idea of what she can accomplish if she keeps practicing. So I can't wait to go! The only downside is that the concert starts at 7:30 pm. We'll have to make sure Emmelia gets a good nap that day. I bought tickets near the back of the auditorium, just in case we have to get up and leave early. Adding to the stress, it's the day after her birthday party. AND we have Buffs football tickets the day of Em's birthday party, too. If the game ends up being in the evening we're going to try to go. It could be a very busy weekend!!

We had our first snowstorm of the season here this week. The girls were very excited to get to put on all their winter gear (aren't they cuties? They posed this way all on their own - I love that they love each other so much). Today Emmelia's class is going on a field trip to a pumpkin patch where they will get to ride a tractor and a train as well as pick out their very own pumpkin! She was very, very excited this morning. Of course this doesn't obviate the need for us to make a family trip to the pumpkin patch - Maura very much wants to go, too. Maybe this weekend, if it isn't completely taken up by soccer games and the Bishop's visit.

Thursday, October 12, 2006

Is it Friday yet?

We *almost* had some birthday party angst yesterday when I realized that I had only reserved the party place for up to 20 kids and Emmelia has 20 kids in her class. I've always felt that, if you can, you should invite the whole class to parties. But I talked to Em and she really only wants to invite the girls because the boys are mean to her. And I know they are. And, hey, that gets us down to only 6 or 7 kids from school, leaving plenty of room for family friends (there are 3-4 non-school-friend boys she wants to invite, too, so it won't be ALL girls).

Anyway, I think it'll be fine.

Yesterday the Deac took one of his fire trucks over to the daycare and talked to the kids about fire safety for Fire Prevention Week. The kids and the firefighters all had a great time! They talked about what to do if your clothes catch on fire: Stop, Drop and Roll (the kids enacted this); what to do if there is smoke: crawl under it (the kids all crawled under a sheet held low by the teachers); and what a firefighter in full bunker gear and SCBA looks like (i.e. don't hide under the bed thinking it's a monster!). Then the kids got to go look at the firetruck. The little kids got to walk across the truck and look at the pump panel and the older kids got to help shoot water out of a hose. I was glad I made him take the camera along - the Asst. Director got lots of fun photos we can print out for the kids. And the Deac found this handout to send home with the kids, too. Here's some photos:









I've had a lot of fun making layouts that are a bit out of my element this week. Here's one I did as a challenge from my friend Amy (Doodleboogs at SOTB) using her "Pirates Drunge" kit and my friend Christine's "A Bit of Bliss" kit:
And I simply HAD to use some of those cute photos of Em dressed up a week or so ago on a layout. Here's what I came up with:

In other news, the Deac and I are working hard at finding "balance" in our life. We've started eating better and so far we've both lost a little weight. I'm excited about the changes we're making and, not to sound sappy, kind of feel like there is a brand new world out there waiting for us.

Monday, October 09, 2006

No angst this year

I know some of you are wondering why I haven't been obsessing about Emmelia's birthday party arrangements like I did last year. You probably think that I will soon - right? Wrong! There is almost no angst about arrangments this year and it's wonderful! Back in August, Emmelia decided where she wants to have the party and I called and arranged it. I have ordered and purchased some fun things for gift bags. She's already selected the cake she wants. And late last week, I finished designing the invitations:
I'm really happy with how they came out and, more importantly, so is she! So it's a go. And it's ever so nice that it's going together without a lot of worry this year, because I just don't have worry in me. No energy to worry - maybe that's a good thing. Or maybe that's why there hasn't been any angst... sort of a chicken-egg thing. Who knows?

We had a nice weekend. We had a playdate on Friday that was relaxing and fun. Even though the Buffs lost AGAIN on Saturday, it was a lovely day. We did some shopping and planned a menu to get us through until we meet with the nutritionist this week about our new life changes, and we even got some leaves picked up in the yard with the help of our friend Michael. We used the leaves to make a giant pumpkin-head man (dubbed "Jack Pumpkinhead" by Emmelia after the character in the Oz books) and a huge spider (dubbed "Shilob" by the Deac and I vis a vis "The Lord of the Rings").





















You can see more of our leaf fun in my flickr account by clicking on the badge on the left. Emmelia's been dying to "decorate" for Halloween, so this activity killed two birds with one stone, so to speak. Then she drew several pictures of jack-o-lanterns and taped them up on the outside of the house, the garage and in the yard. She really wants people to be scared! Hee. Here's a couple she posted:

Yesterday I got out my sewing machine for the first time since I made the christening gown for our girls just in time for Emmelia's baptism back in 2001. I made a quick quilted blanket fitted to fit in the window frame in their room to block the light. It was a fast project and worked really well! In the meantime, I discovered a brand new JoAnn's store just a few miles north of us that is soooo much better than the other fabric stores around here. I might just start sewing again. Of course, I also discovered that Maura enjoys things like sticking pins in her mouth and disconnecting my power cord whenever she can.... maybe I'll have to sew after they fall asleep at night.

Tuesday, October 03, 2006

The more we get together, the happier we'll be

We had such a lovely evening with the girls last night. The TV was off (key to a good evening, I think) and the Deac and the girls started playing "Hide and Go Seek." I was kind of trying to pick up the house a bit since it didn't magically pick itself up while I was lying in bed sick this weekend (surprise!)... and somehow I got pulled into the game, too. We probably played for about an hour. It was great. But now the kids know all the good hiding places in the house.... the days when they think pulling the covers over their head in bed makes them invisible might be gone.

Tonight we are going to watch "The Little Mermaid" - yep, like good parents we rushed out and bought the DVD as soon as it was available today... Christmas be darned. I know technically this is still like watching television, but it's more of a planned event. Besides, we're going to need something to take our mind off the Deac's blood test results this evening. He has an appointment with the doctor this afternoon and prayers and positive thoughts are most appreciated!

I did get a chance to scrap some layouts using Amy's templates and Christine's "A Little Fall" kit and her amazing stitching to show off our leaf photos from Sunday. I like how they came out - it's amazing what you can do with good products.

Monday, October 02, 2006

Good and Bad

Good: Emmelia fell asleep at 5:30 on both Saturday and Sunday nights
Bad: It was because she had a bug (that I got on Sunday). Ugh.

Good: I seem to be feeling a bit better today. I am awake and have an appetite, anyway.
Bad: I didn't lose any weight not eating much yesterday.

Good: My Sisters 4 Ever layout from Friday's post was nominated as Layout of the Day over at Digital Scrapbook Pages! Very cool!
Bad: Now I feel like scrapping, but have work that must be done.

Both the Deac and I got some great photos of the girls this weekend. You can see them over on my Flickr badge on the left. And I did get some time at lunch to make one layout. My friend Christine Nash came up with the perfect photo borders for this photo from last week (everything else is by her, as well, except the quote on the tag, which is from Designer Digital Freebies):

Friday, September 29, 2006

Yeay, Friday again!

Not a very prolific week in terms of getting things accomplished, but I did catch up on some things at work before the end of the quarter, so that is good. We had a busy week in terms of evening activities. The Deac had fire department stuff two nights this week and the girls had 2 playdates this week (both on the same day - it actually worked out pretty well), as well as soccer practice. This week Emmelia had her first group lesson in violin. Groups are a big part of Suzuki theory - they allow kids to see other kids their age playing violin and lets them practice together and encourage each other. Emmelia loved group. She started to learn rhythyms, which is actually a sneaky way of teaching them notes (as in the difference between a whole note, half note, quarter note, etc.) before they actually learn to read music. Last night, Em had a make-up violin lesson - normally group supplants individual lessons once a month - wherein she advanced to her 2nd song! She is working on variations on Twinkle, Twinkle, Little Star. She'll learn 4 variations (different rhythyms used to play the same notes) then the song itself. She's almost got "I'm a Little Monkey" down and last night started on "Grasshopper - Grasshopper." After Twinkle, she'll be on the road to learning all sorts of songs, including some Bach minuets. Right now she's referred to as a "pre-Twinkler." But she *really* wants to learn the song that comes after Twinkle: Lightly Row. Right now that is her main motivation. And last night she made a major stride toward her goal!

We are still worrying about the Deac's medical issues here and all the stress is wearing us thin. But we just keep trudging forward - we can persevere through this and someday maybe "normal" will return. At any rate, prayers are always appreciated.

Emmelia has another soccer game tomorrow which promises to be LOVELY fall weather and should be much warmer than last week's soccer game. She really seems to be enjoying it.






















I got 4 layouts done this week, which isn't bad for not really feeling much like scrapping. Two quickpages helped me scrap some older photos and then I used some photos I took of friends' kids this summer to make pages using a template by Doodleboogs over at SOTB. I really like how that 2-pager came out. I used my friend Ginger's Fresh kit and the colors were just perfect for the photos and the elements went well with the template. The addition of Christine's Simply Stitching in Basic Vanilla really added the perfect touch.

I was really excited on the Christmas card one (figured I should scrap that one before it's time to design THIS years!) because I figured out how to make the ribbon on the top look pinched like it had been put through the ornament hanger. It's so fun to learn new techniques in the Gimp!

Tuesday, September 26, 2006

You Are My I Love You


I've been wanting to use this poem for a while now. I saw it on a layout in one of the digital scrapping galleries and fell in love with it. Turns out it's the words from a children's book by Maryann Cusimano Love called (appropriately enough) "You Are My I Love You." For the layout, I used a set of freebie papers by Jen Reed that were given away on the Digi Pick of the Day blog when she was interviewed. The colors are not what I normally work with, but went great (and, you know, are absolutely *stunning*) with this photo Emmelia took of me and Maura back in March. And I accented with some of Christine's excellent stitching - from her Autumn stitches collection and her Imperfect Browns.

Here's the poem from the book:

I am your parent,
you are my child.
I am your quiet place,
you are my wild.
I am your calm face,
you are my giggle.
I am your wait,
you are my wiggle.
I am your water wings,
you are my deep.
I am your open arms,
you are my running leap.
I am your way home,
you are my new path.
I am your dry towel,
you are my wet bath.
I am your dinner,
you are my chocolate cake.
I am your bedtime,
you are my wide awake.
I am your finish line,
you are my race.
I am your praying hands,
you are my saying grace.
I am your favorite book,
you are my new lines.
I am your night-light,
you are my star shine.
I am your lullaby,
you are my peek-a-boo,
I am your good night kiss,
you are my I love you.

Friday, September 22, 2006

Yep, it's Friday all right...

Ah, yes, it's Friday - must be time for another blog post. Hee. I've actually had a very productive week at work and got a lot of things done. In general, I've been swamped and along with it, my general state of exhaustion has grown. I hope to find some quality nap time this weekend.

Really, I didn't even have much of a chance to scrap this week. However my friend Christine just developed a new kit called My Boys: Dino Dig (available at Scrap Outside The Box) that I have fallen completely in love with. I used it to finally scrap the photos from our trip to the Denver Museum of Nature and Science with Emmelia's pre-K class this summer. First I made the dinosaur page, which was somewhat revolutionary for me - I rarely make pages that are more about the page than the photo. But this kit sort of made me HAVE to do that because there were just so many cool elements and papers I wanted to incorporate. So today I decided to make a 2nd page (you don't see that many 2-page layouts in the digiscrap world, but it is done occasionally) with the rest of the photos I liked from the field trip. So the two layouts hopefully balance each other. Plus I got to use some of Christine's excellent Simply Stitching on both layouts to help tie them together. A while back my friend Ginger Thibodeau put together a set of Giant Letter Patches that I used for the "museum" title - that worked out rather nicely, I think! Christine's stitching and Ginger's patches are available at Scrapbook-Elements.
Hope everyone has a lovely first weekend of fall! It promises to be cold and (possibly) even snowy here. I wonder if Emmelia will play ANY soccer games this season?

Friday, September 15, 2006

Bug - 4; Us - 0

Boy, this time of year can be rough - the new school year begins and along with their laptops and iPods, the students bring new germs onto campus. This week we've all been down with some sort of bug. But the good news is things seem to be on the upswing in time for another weekend. Hopefully we'll feel good enough to enjoy this one more than the last one. Emmelia has her first soccer game tomorrow - I'm looking forward to seeing it. The 4 year olds play 5 on 5 and only have 8 minute quarters so at least it will be mercifully short. I am not sure what to expect because the kids still seem to have no idea what they are doing out there on the field. At practice this week the coach ran a drill where the kids just chased each other around the field trying to get the ball. I mean, they are still learning that the point is to try to get the ball - not stay in-bounds, get the ball to the goal, or have any sort of strategy. Actually, it'll be interesting to see how different their last game of the season is from tomorrow's game.

Well, anyway - you'll notice I decided not to blog about the 5th anniversary of Sept. 11th. On that day I found myself taking the girls for the first visit to the dentist. It was a "Happy Visit" wherein they got to ride in the dental chair and the dentist checked their teeth. It went well - neither has cavities but Emmelia needs a good cleaning. But I did find myself in sort of a surreal mood that whole day.

I've been scrapping away lately - I joined another Creative Team, but it was for my friend Christine Nash, whose stuff I use a lot anyway. So not much has changed. I have had some fun with her new page templates, though. Here's my latest layouts:

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Thursday, September 07, 2006

CAN you take it with you?

The other day the Deac was looking at something my mother had given him after my Dad died. Emmelia asked him if it was something that had belonged to Grandad. At the "yes" response, she got thoughtful for a moment and then said: "You know, when Grandad comes back to life [she means, is resurrected], he's gonna know his stuff is gone." Ha!

Here's a couple fun layouts I managed to throw together in not much time over the past couple of days. I really love the one of Maura with the water gun. The background on the "Speed" one is actually a bad photo I took - no photo manipulation was involved there. But it came out pretty cool. Although it's obvious Emmelia needs a new bike (& helmet!) - it's starting to look like she's riding a circus bike. Hmmm... might have to talk to Santa Claus about that.

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

Long time no see (redux)

There's been a lot happening that is blog-worthy. But I'm just don't get around to blogging that much. Since my last post Lynette Hoppe lost her battle with metastatic breast cancer. She was an amazing woman - an incredible example to many people around the world. Also last week my cousin lost her baby at 33.5 weeks gestation. What a horrible tragedy. We know baby Aubrey is safe in the arms of God and never had to suffer in this world. But it's still a tough pill to swallow for those left behind. I was starting to get a little freaked out because these things generally happen in threes, but then Steve Irwin died and that was sad, too. So maybe that will be it for a while.

Emmelia enjoyed Tae Kwon-Do, but has decided she's done with it for a while, which is convenient because soccer starts this week. The girls are sleeping apart in their OWN ROOM and doing a great job of it, although it still feels weird to me. We've been co-sleeping for nearly 5 years now. I turn the baby monitor up to the point I can hear them breathing and it seems almost like they are there next to me. I think the hardest part of parenting is letting your kids grow away from you, but not too fast.

We had a good Labor Day weekend - spending time with friends and decorating our house a bit. New curtains for the girl's room were in order so that the light would not wake them up so early in the morning. On Monday we took the canoe and kayak out with some friends and had a great time. The girls really, really enjoyed being in the boats, which made us happy. We'd like to go out more, but soon will need to get a tandem kayak to make it possible - I found it difficult to paddle over a 4-year-old's head in the single.

I was asked to join a Creative Team - a group of people that make layouts with kits by certain designers and post around to different on-line galleries to help the designer draw in customers. So far it's been a fun challenge, although I haven't had as much time to scrap the past couple week as I would like. Here's my last few layouts, most of which I made for the Doodleboogs CT.




Thursday, August 24, 2006

The End of Summer

Summer is nearing an end. Most of Emmelia's friends started kindergarten this week, but she is doing pretty well with the transition. Next Monday her friends from Preschool will get moved up into the pre-K room with her. For now, it's just her and three friends who were in pre-K but aren't going to Kindy this year, so they are getting lots of extra attention from their teacher.

Last night was our last swimming lesson of the year. Emmelia did TERRIFIC! She has really gotten more confident in the water this summer and will put her face under without too much complaining. The teacher said we can advance her to the next swimming level - Eel at the YMCA. This is really good news for me because I was a little worried she and Maura would be in the same swim class next summer. The Pike and Eel classes meet at the same time, so it will still be convenient. It's hard to believe that next summer will be the first summer since 2002 that I won't be in a parent-child swim class - both girls will be in the water while I sit and wait for them. I guess I should learn to knit or something.

Lately I have been so... I don't know, disappointed, I guess by the digiscrap world. It just seems to me that there is more and more of a disparity between those who design and those who don't. The designers, I guess logically, set the standard for what is "in" and what isn't anymore in digiscrapping. And it really seems a little hard to keep up with what is "in" because everyone is trying so darn hard to come up with something NEW that will sell!

I enjoy scrapping for me, but I have to admit I also really like comments and feedback. I would really like it more in the galleries if people would give honest feedback to layouts - say "looks really nice, but might be more balanced if such-and-such element were over on the other side" - something like that. But no one knows each other and are afraid to comment at ALL or when they do, it's just "Great job, thanks for sharing". Which, you know, it's nice to get ANY comment these days, but still.....

And lately I've also been noticing something that always annoyed me about paper scrapping - people making layouts with kits and quotes that have NOTHING to do with the photos they are using. I hate that. But I realize that's a total pet peeve of mine and everyone is free to do scrapping however they'd like. But I do wonder if some of it is because people are on creative teams and are sort of forced to make a certain designer's kits work with whatever photos they have.

I would like to apply for CTs and make layouts that maybe will get noticed or appreciated, but at the same time I'm not sure I really want to buy into the politics of the digiscrap world or find myself in the same boat of having to "force" layouts just to meet the requirements of the creative team. I like having freedom in my creativity. I realize part of my problem is I just like to look at layouts in galleries and get ideas and I don't hang out on a bunch of forums, which is probably where people would get to know me, but I just don't have a lot of extra time for that.

Anyway, after I vented those last few paragraphs on my digiscrap board where my friends seem to understand, I was able to get over the scrapping block I've had the past few days and come up with these two layouts using kits from my friends Christine Nash (Nanny's Kitchen) and Tamara Lee Miller (Fly Away Butterfly). I even branched out a little bit - using blending modes and trying the current "in" thing of making a cluster of charms on a simple layout.

Monday, August 21, 2006

Returning to "normal"

In a massive leap toward our lives returning to normal, the Deac went back to work today! I think it was a bit stressful for him looking at 4 months worth of unfinished tasks and put-off projects. But he'll roll with the punches and be in the swing of things again quickly.

Today I got the paperwork to open enroll Emmelia into the elementary school we'd prefer for Kindergarten next year. Yes, NEXT YEAR and I'm already having to put her on a waiting list for a public school. Crazy! Having had her in the pre-kindergarten room this summer and having a chance to interact with the kids going to kindy this fall on field trips, etc., I'm actually glad she's got another year to wait. Academically she's more than ready, but having another year to emotionally mature won't hurt a bit. I was even surprised to find out that she is physically a little smaller than most of the kids going to kindy this year. Supposedly physical size is directly proportional to success in elementary school.

Yesterday I took Em to a birthday party for 2 of her best friends (neighbors with similar birthdays, so they had a combined party) and realized that this week might be the last week she sees some of her friends. She's staying in the pre-K room at daycare, but most of her summer classmates are off to kindergarten this week at schools all across the area. Some of them will be doing before- and after-school care at the daycare, but some will be doing it at their elementary schools now. These are kids we've gotten to know well over the past 4 years and it's kind of an odd feeling watching them all go their separate ways now. I hope Emmelia isn't too traumatized by seeing them all go, but she's pretty adaptable. And she has some friends in the preschool room that will be moving into pre-K next week. So she'll probably do okay.

Friday, August 18, 2006

A new collage

I am hoping to find a little time to scrap today, but in the meantime I did put together this layout this week:

I had a ton of cute photos from our visit to this awesome park for a playdate earlier this month, and wasn't sure how to showcase them all without overwhelming the page. Jen Caputo to the rescue with one of her amazing sketches! I am really happy with the colors and "white space" in this layout, even though there are 10 photos on it!

That new park we visited is VERY, VERY cool. We'll be taking the girls back there again soon.

Thursday, August 17, 2006

Chinks in my Armor

On the way home from work tonight I found myself suddenly very much missing my father and sobbing in the car. It was a strange moment because I realized I've been supressing a lot of grief and emotion in an effort to "be strong" for those around me. At home I have to be strong for the kids - so they don't feel the extra stress we're under; for my husband - so he feels supported and can concentrate his energy on healing; for me to be able to cope with all the extra duties expected of me to ensure our life proceeds apace. At work I have to be strong for our co-workers, because the Deac and I have mutual co-workers now and they need to feel affirmed that their IT guy is going to be back soon to support them. At church I have to be strong for the kids, for the Deac, and for the parishioners who don't really understand why their deacon hasn't served a liturgy since Pascha. There's no chance for me to NOT be strong, really.

At times this summer I've thought that's good - that not having a lot of time to process and dwell on my grief might make it easier to handle. But now I'm not so sure that I'm not just prolonging the inevitable.

And through this whole summer of desperation and difficulty, I've discovered something else about my life which disturbs me. I've realized I have no one in this world on whom I can rely to care about me. Very few people have offered us any tangible help. But, you see, it's not like there's a lot of tangible help to be offered - I'm not saying this to make anyone feel bad or feel like they need to suddenly offer help. In fact, it's prideful to think that anyone SHOULD care more about me than their own busy and stressful lives. I'm just saying that it's been eye-opening. In a way it feels like a crisis of faith. Only I still have faith - it's all I have left.

The truth is, I have always had a tendency to want to rely on other people for support and validation of my self-worth. But we're told: "Do not put your trust in princes, in mortal men, who cannot save" (Psalm 146:3). We're also told that experiences such as long-term illness are given to us by God to strengthen our faith and reliance on Him. I suppose that is happening, but not in the way I expected.

I thought I would be drawn more towards a pious experience of my faith - want to pray more, to spend more time at church, or reading the scriptures. Instead, I find I have no energy for that. I have no energy for anything "extra" beyond mere survival at this point. I don't feel any desire to reach out to anyone, including God. And I know that God understands that. I realized tonight that there is absolutely nothing I can do besides fall into God's arms and rest on His strength. It sounds trite to say that, and even I am not sure what it means in any practical sense. But emotionally, spritually, that is very much the sense I have.

Today I participated in about the umpteenth "diversity training" session of my career. It's a part of University life, I'm afraid, to re-learn how we should think about diversity every couple of years. And while I didn't get much out of the training itself that I didn't already know, there were a few stories that brought tears to my eyes. And I think that's what led to my breakdown in the car on the way home - I've been trying so hard to supress the grief and loneliness and sadness that tearing up when I heard others speak of their pain was the chink in my armor. Probably not a bad thing, except I'm still not in a "safe" place to express it - we still are not back to any semblance of "normal life." But harder than that for me has been realizing there is no one to share this with me. It's something I have to shoulder on my own - or, better yet, learn to share with God. When I learn to rely on God and God alone, I will truly have begun my journey to salvation.

I really need some time away - a retreat or something, maybe a week at our favorite women's monastery in California. But that will have to wait for quite a while until we've recovered a bit in a physical and material sense. In the meantime, I'm continuing to tread water.

P.S. Another "chink" in my emotional armor this week has come from thinking and praying about Lynette Hoppe, who is facing her last weeks on earth from metastatic breast cancer. She is an amazing woman. I can only hope to have an ounce of the pounds of faith she has when I near the end of my life. Read the last entry on her blog - and keep her in your prayers.

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

Anniversaries

Yesterday would've been my father's 65th birthday. A few weeks ago, a party supplies catalog appeared in our mail - probably because I ordered some things from Oriental Express for Emmelia's party last year - and one of their new party "themes" was John Deere. I thought that would've been so appropriate and fun to have a John Deere themed party for my Dad's birthday. Oh well - we likely wouldn't have had a lot of time/energy/money to plan much this year anyhow.

Today is the Feast of the Dormition of the Theotokos - the day wherein we remember her death and from her example learn how to approach death ourselves. Happy feast! This also means it is the one year anniversary of my blog! That's really hard to believe... that I'm still here, still posting. I averaged a little over 10 posts a month in my first year, but not very many comments. You all need to work on that part. ;-) The other anniversary we celebrated recently was the 6th anniversary of the Deac's ordination on Sunday. He didn't quite feel up to serving on Sunday, but did serve his first liturgy since Pascha for the Dormition liturgy last night. It was good to hear his beautiful tenor voice singing litanies again. And so good to have him on the mend.

Yesterday Emmelia officially started Tae Kwon Do lessons. She LOVED it! This was after showing us what she had learned at her "graduation" ceremony last Saturday - and also broke a board! Though they won't always be in the same class sessions each week, she was joined yesterday by her 3 friends from school. Each girl earned her first belt by memorizing and reciting the "Little Dragon's Pledge" (the Deac said Emmelia did a terrific job reciting, too):
1. I will listen to my parents.
2. I will clean my room every day.
3. I will do my best at Tae Kwon Do.
There are really good messages already sinking in to her about honesty, integrity and what they call "life skills" that are messages she's heard from us umpteen times but really mean something now that her Tae Kwon Do teacher is saying it, too. Heh.

Today I get to be fitted for contact lenses again! My cornea seems to have healed and my vision has returned to normal. So I imagine I'll have the same prescription but with preservative-free solution. Hopefully I won't have to get the expensive contacts you throw away each day, but we'll see. I am *so* excited to have a break from these stupid glasses again! (Edited to say: they just called and moved my appointment to next week. Boo.)

Get this - over 2 months until Emmelia turns FIVE (how did THAT happen??) and we ALREADY HAVE THE PARTY SCHEDULED. Remember all my angst last year about finding a place to have her 4th birthday party? Well, NONE of that this year. She knows where she wants it and what she wants on her cake and I've reserved the time. EXCELLENT!!

Oh, I just finished a page with a new kit by my friend Christine Nash (called "Razzle Dazzle"). I had these photos of Emmelia from June that really show her personality, but weren't very good photos - kind of out-of-focus or too close-up. This was kind of a fun way to show them off in a fairly simple layout.

Friday, August 11, 2006

World Events

Back on September 11, 2001, I was 7 months pregnant with my first child. As I watched the events of the day unfold, I felt a growing feeling of fear, anxiety and sadness at the state of the world I was bringing my child into. The next day I was hospitalized with premature contractions due to the stress. Luckily, Emmelia stayed put until the week before her due date.

But today we received word that a predominantly Christian village in Lebanon, Deir Mimas (which I'm told literally means "Monastery of Mamas") has been destroyed by Israeli bombing. 350 Orthodox Christian families (and families are BIG in Lebanon) are displaced from their homes. These are people NOT INVOLVED in the conflict between Hezbollah and Israel. The nearby monastery of Hamatoura was also destroyed. The monk working to repopulate the monastery was thankfully not there at the time.

One of Emmelia's best friends from church is in Lebanon now with her mother. They go every summer to visit family and I've been so worried about them through this whole thing. They are in north Lebanon, so somewhat safer, but the options for returning to the U.S. early next month, as planned, are severely limited by the destruction of the Beirut airport and all roads and bridges to Syria.

{{Sigh}}

Another week has reached its end

It's been a good week, even though I've been in severe pain for most of it. My uterine pain seems to be recurring - I see the RE again at the end of this month and am not really looking forward to having to make a decision about a possible hysterectomy. But we shall see.

I managed to get a ton done at work and also have some time for scrapping. No housework got done, so I suppose there is balance. {{hee}} As you can see, I'm still trying to catch up on some of my old photos.





Tomorrow the daughter of some old friends is getting married in my hometown. The bride was actually one of the flower girls at our wedding. I am a little bummed we can't be there, but the long car journey is just impossible for the Deac right now, uncomfortable for me and the girls, and gas and hotels are not cheap. Plus we had no one to take care of the dog. So, we stay home. Turns out the bride and groom live in the Denver metro area, though, so we'll hopefully get together with them soon and buy them a nice dinner. And we'll have to plan a visit to Grammy when everyone is feeling better!

Since we're staying here tomorrow, we decided to go to Emmelia's "graduation" at the Tae Kwan Do place. She gets to show us what she's learned, break a piece of wood, get a free uniform, and sign up for a month of free lessons. The deac wants to just sign her up now, instead of waiting until soccer is over. I guess we can see how it goes. I'm going to try to get some good photos tomorrow because I'm obviously back in the scrapping mood!

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

An Expensive Summer

New water heater installed to replace broken one: $870
New crown on back molar due to enamel chipping and crack: $800
Co-pays for four CT scans to track the pneumonia: $400
Radiation dose the Deac received with each CT scan: 800 millirem

Feeling we had when the last CT showed the pneumonia is finally resolving: PRICELESS!

Made me feel up to scrapping again, actually. Here's a couple layouts of playground visits this summer. The one with just Maura was made with a freebie kit from 2peas and the green one was made using my friend Amy Huffman's (Doodleboogs) Wilbur kit.

We had a lovely weekend - the new playground/park was a ton of fun and Emmelia got a bowling score of 67 at the birthday party!

Yesterday we found out that Maura does have asthma, something I suspected but was hoping wouldn't be true. Luckily she is in a "lull" right now and doesn't need any treatment, but we have to watch her carefully once cold/flu season hits and get the nebulizer going as soon as she has any lung involvement. The doc is quite sure she'll outgrow this. After her appointment, the Deac, Maura and I had lunch at a different Pete's restaurant in Denver than the one we usually go to - Pete's Kitchen. I had a veggie pita sandwich and it was really yummy!

Later yesterday both girls went along with us to vote in the primary election. It was kind of boring since no one was running unopposed, but it gave me a chance to try out the new electronic voting machine. It was pretty easy - a lot like operating an iPod.

Emmelia's class has been doing a segment on physical fitness and has gone on a couple field trips to a local Tae Kwon Do place. She LOVES it! I told her that we'd think about signing her up after soccer ends. I don't want to over-schedule her. The nice thing is there seems a positive message sent and an emphasis on building self-confidence. And the first month of lessons are free, so if she doesn't like it we're not out much.

Friday, August 04, 2006

Friday

Do you like my creative post titles this week? :-)

Boy, I JUST have NOT been in a scrapping mood this week. It's odd. I am tired and finding it difficult to stay focused due to the tiredness, but have still been accomplishing a lot at work, so that's good.

The mother of one of Emmelia's classmates is making a quilt for their teacher this year. She sent home blocks of white fabric with a clear 4x6" pocket sewn on. We are to decorate the square and put in a photo. Actually, we were supposed to do this a while ago - I just found the envelope again last weekend. She sent 2 blocks so that she'll hopefully get enough returned to make a quilt for the daycare director, too. I think it's a fun idea, I just wish I had remembered to look at it when I was in a more "scrappy" mood. But here's what I came up with:

For her teacher (that's her with Em in the photo): And for the Director:
I think they will like them. Most everything is from my friend Christine Nash's new "A Bit of Funky Fun" kit. Except the frame and tag (which I re-colored) in the first one - those were freebies from ScrapGirls. The first one actually started out following a sketch from my friend Ginger's blog, but it actually turned out to not follow the sketch very closely at all - that freedom to be creative is part of the fun of scrapping!

Tomorrow we have a busy, busy day planned. The girls and I are meeting some e-friends from my due date board at a new local park. Then we'll probably grab a quick lunch together before I deposit Maura at home with the Deac and take Emmelia to a birthday party for one of her classmates at the local BOWLING ALLEY! Then we'll head down to church for a memorial service for the Deac's mom (Anne reposed 10 years ago today - may her memory be eternal!) before Vespers. Then after a short playground stop (assuming it's not raining like the dickens), we're planning to eat out at a new Italian restaurant we found (& which quickly became our favorite) with our good friend Michael. Whew! It should go by in a whirlwind, but I'm looking forward to every part of our plan. If we can get some good sleep tonight, it should go even better. I need to remember to give Maura some Motrin for those molars before bedtime.

Speaking of teeth, I had a dental hygiene appointment today that went really well - the hygienist was ecstatic about my flossing and the good shape my teeth and gums are in now! That was cool. The bad news is that I need a crown on one of my molars. That will cost as much as it cost us to have the new water heater installed this week - and the Deac and I are seriously wondering what God is up to... why all these high expenses at a time when finances are low and unreliable? Sigh. I suppose this is life as an adult. And at least I have insurance, even though it only covers 50% of the darn thing. But - it could be worse! Let's hope it gets better! Especially in time for the CT scan on Monday.

Yep, there's just no reason NOT to do it

This just in from Reuters...

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/14154841/

Breastfeeding reduces anxiety into childhood

Kids cope better with stress than their bottle-fed peers, study shows

Updated: 6:16 p.m. MT Aug 2, 2006

LONDON - Breastfeeding's calming effects seem to be long-lasting.

Years after being weaned, breastfed children cope better with stressful situations like their parents' divorce than their bottle-fed peers, researchers said on Thursday.

"In children who are breast-fed, there is less of an association between parental divorce and separation and childhood anxiety," Dr Scott Montgomery, an epidemiologist at the Karolinska Institute in Sweden, said in an interview.



Breast milk is full of nutrients, hormones, enzymes, growth factors and antibodies that are passed from mother to child.

Research has shown breast-feeding reduces infections, respiratory illness and diarrhea in the child and cuts the risk of post-birth bleeding in the mother.

In an observation study published in the journal Archives of Disease in Childhood, Montgomery and his team studied how breast- and bottle-fed 10-year-olds coped with the stress of their parents' marital problems.

The children were among 9,000 youngsters who had been monitored from birth for a major British study. Their teachers were asked to rate their anxiety level on a scale of 0 to 50.

There was a higher level of stress in all the children but the breastfed youngsters coped better.


"The anxiety was much less obvious in children who were breastfed," Montgomery said.

The researchers do not know why breastfed babies were less anxious. They suggested breastfeeding could be an indicator of other parental factors or the physical contact between the mother and the child may have helped to reduce anxiety.

Breastfeeding could also influence the development of pathways in the body linked with its response to stress.

"The more we look at breastfeeding, the more benefits we see. As this is something that is, in evolutionary terms, normal it is likely to be important in normal human development," Montgomery said.

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Monday, July 31, 2006

Monday



Look what my Mom did with some of the photos I sent her! This is a sub-category of digiscrapping called "ATC" - "Altered Trading Cards." Of course, like digiscrap, ATCs were first done with paper baseball cards or playing cards. Very cool! She's very talented, my Mom. If I inherited just 1/10th of her artistic ability, I'll be happy (and I'm not just saying that because she reads my blog).

Today we are getting our water heater replaced. What is it when one person is out of work - everything keeps breaking!! But oh well. Hot water is a necessity in a home with children. I'm very grateful the Deac qualified for short-term disability. It by no means covers everything, but we're not sinking yet. Speaking of the Deac, he's not feeling much better. He has another CT scan next week to tell us if the current treatment is doing anything.

Well, as I expected, the girls LOVE their water clogs. They call them "crogs." It's cute. And I'm still in the Zone. Doing well, even though I pretty much took the weekend off. It's much easier to diet at work where my food storage is limited. The real challenge is going to be the Dormition fast that starts tomorrow. Will I be able to stay in the Zone with severely limited protein choices? We'll see, I guess.

In other news, Maura is getting 2 molars - no wonder we're not sleeping well at night! Poor bean.

Oh, and this is amazing, particularly if you remember all the angst we had about planning Emmelia's fourth birthday - she's already got her fifth birthday planned out. Complete with location (indoor "bounce" facility here in our hometown - thanks to field trips and another birthday party, completely scoped out), cake decor & flavor, and date. Excellent! I think I may just go ahead and book it - why not? Why save all the stress for October? Maybe I'll even design the invitations now. Hee.

Friday, July 28, 2006

Clog success!

Ah, the mundane excitements of parenthood. Today at lunch I decided to check out the Payless store near my office. And look what I found!!
It's a little sad how excited I am to have found these in perfect colors and all 3 pairs for only around $40! The girls are going to be absolutely thrilled with their pink and purple water clogs! And I love my blue pair. They are very light and comfortable.

That excursion didn't take long, so I also found some time to put together a quick layout about swimming lessons. I decided to use one of the photos I took Wednesday night that wasn't perfect but that at least shows the kids are happy. The kit I used is a freebie this month from 2Peas, but the title strip and "enjoy life" tag were actually freebies from ScrapGirls. The journalling on the tag reads: "Maura didn't feel like posing for photos this night, but enjoyed her parent-child swim class. Her favorite activities were swimming through the hula hoop and jumping in from the edge. Emmelia did two sessions of the Pike level and learned to kick and dog paddle with a noodle. She has really gained a lot of confidence." I decided to leave out the story about how Maura puked in the kiddie pool one night and they had to close it (I think she had swallowed some water) - that was memorable. But I do kind of wish I'd found a way to include my favorite quote from Maura this year: "No Mama! I swim by myself!" She's so into trying new things and saying "I do it myself!" that she wanted to swim in the big pool without me. I don't think she fully understood what she was asking.

Thursday, July 27, 2006

Cutie Patooties



We had a parish picnic after liturgy this past Sunday to celebrate St. Elias' feast day last week. It was a fun time. I got my camera out kinda late - after I noticed Maura and one of her little friends hugging and just generally being cute. Of course, by the time I got the camera out, they had stopped that, but I still snapped a couple cute ones of the kids.

Last night at swimming lessons I tried to take a cute photo of the kids. Maura wanted NOTHING to do with it, so wouldn't look at me. Emmelia just froze in place with a goofy smile on her face, hoping that Maura would accidentally look at me for a second and I could snap a photo. It didn't work very well. So suffice it to say I'm glad there are 4 more weeks left of swimming lessons this summer. The kids are really loving the water and both have become a lot more confident with it this year.

Emmelia really wants croc sandals - you know, those ugly little rubber clogs that look so comfortable? The ones that cost $30 even for kids whose feet grow quickly? I want some too. Sigh. So we'd be looking at a $90 deal if I got them. Not likely! But I did a little web research today and found some cheap knock-offs for half the price at Payless. The girls don't care if they are the real thing or not - they just want the "cool" shoes their friends have. I thought about ordering them on-line, but it would take 2-3 weeks for the free in-store delivery and I figure I can probably at least go look in the store to see if they have the right sizes before I do that. And maybe later I can get myself some real ones. {evil laugh}

Tuesday, July 25, 2006

Still in the Zone (yeay!)

I have been on the Zone for a week now! I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE this diet! For some reason it just works for me and makes sense. This morning I had a lovely breakfast of a 2-egg omelet with cheddar cheese, red bell peppers, tomatoes and spinach; canadian bacon; cantaloupe and red grapes. SO yummy! And I won't be hungry until lunch time when I have a yummy taco salad waiting.

I am finding that I have a ton more energy than I used to have and many fewer food cravings. I have lost 4.5 pounds this week, but know most of that was probably water weight. I'm hoping to start doing 30 minutes on the elliptical 2-3 times a week starting this week. I'm also planning to continue my stretches and exercises for my back so I don't strain it again.

We have gone on family walks around the block a few times this week. It's hard with a toddler and an invalid - it's not really exercise, per se. LOL. But it does get us moving and out together doing something besides watch television.

The Deac and I also started organizing the basement this weekend. This is something we have needed to do since we moved into the house 6 years ago, but always feel overwhelmed by all the clutter we've managed to accumulate through our lives. Getting more organized will really help us both feel better and I'm hoping we can get to the point that we can finish the basement and make it useable space so that the girls can each have their own bedroom upstairs before they go off to college. That's my goal.

I've decided to not take Russian this year. I feel stretched way too thin with all that has gone on this summer and need to take some time to get my life in order. There will be time for more Russian in years to come. In the meantime, I have a basic knowledge of the language now and can practice by reading Russian books and newspapers. I still want to know the language better, but this year need to have some flexibility in my schedule and life. Besides, I really need to devote some quality time to studying for the Certified Health Physicist exam I will be taking next summer.

We signed Emmelia up for soccer in the fall. She is really excited about it, particularly since she'll (hopefully!) be on the same team as her friend R. (the same one in the following layout). So she'll have violin lessons and soccer, and for all that I will need to be able to play with my work schedule a bit. Next year Maura will be starting activities so it might just get worse from here, but I've always felt that one reason I work is so that I can provide for activities like this for my kids. I just don't want to end up over-scheduling them. I think sticking with one music activity and one sports activity is reasonable.






I haven't had a lot of time for scrapping lately, but did manage to put together this layout this week. It is a "scraplift" of a layout I saw on e-scapeandscrap and uses my friend Ginger's "Rain" and "Blush" kits. It's not your traditional princess layout, but I think the colors work well together and with the outfits the girls are wearing in the photo. Ginger's kits just have the richest, most saturated colors. I made the border on the right using Ginger's "Princess Doodle" kit. This week, when my computer started running a little slowly, I took a look at the folder that contains all the digi-scrapping kits and freebies I've downloaded. The folder was over 9 GB! GIGA-bytes! Holy smokes! So I'm devoting a little time now to reducing the size of all the papers in the kits from 12-inches by 12-inches to 8-inches by 8-inches. This is saving a ton of disk space and I never scrap in the larger size anyway. Once I get that done I'm sure I'll have a bug to scrap again.

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

In the Zone

Today is going well. Although I'm aware of the dangers of weighing in too often, I had to peek and... I've lost 1.5 pounds already! Sure, I know it's just "water weight," but it's still encouraging. More importantly, I have energy and haven't been craving any bad stuff. This is good! Love the Zone. I just had a delicious snack of string cheese, red seedless grapes and almonds along with a big glass of water.

This afternoon I am sitting here at my desk waiting for my Multi-Channel Analyzer to take multiple readings of some new radioiodine sources I am going to use for my bioassay program. This leaves some free time in between readings, during which I put the finishing touches on this layout of some of the 4th of July photos I took of Maura. There were just so many good ones, I had to scrap them! This was a fun layout to put together. I'm still not completely sure that the quote is THE one, but for now it works.

Monday, July 17, 2006

Happy Name Day - to me!

Today is the feast day of my patron saint, St. Marina the Great Martyr (a.k.a. St. Margaret of Antioch). One of my favorite stories about her life was that the devil appeared to her in the form of a dragon and swallowed her whole. She then used the cross (in some stories, she was holding a cross, in others she made the sign of the cross) to cause the dragon's belly to burst and release her! For this reason she is considered the patron saint of childbirth. I also just noticed she's considered the patron saint for kidney patients. I don't know why. But, I'll have to mention that to my friend J. Here are the Troparian and Kontakian to St. Marina:

Troparion tone 5
O glorious Marina betrothed to God the Word,
thou didst abandon all things earthly
and contest victoriously as a virgin.
For thou didst trample
on the invisible foe when he appeared,
O holy trophy-bearer,
and thou dost now bestow gifts of healing on the world.

Kontakion tone 3
Adorned with the beauty of virginity,
thou hast been crowned with unfading wreaths, O Marina.
Having shed thy blood in holy martyrdom
and radiant with miracles of healing,
thou hast received the prize of victory from the hand of thy Creator.

I just finished this layout of a photo I took of the girls back in January. They both decided to use the potty together - since Maura was only one year old at the time, it was basically the beginning of her potty training. It's the sort of layout I know they'll hate me for when they are teenagers, but this time in our life still deserves to be documented. I used about 4 of my friend Christine's kits to make this layout, but I think all the pieces come together nicely.

This week Emmelia's class finishes up their two-week "Cooking Camp." Last week they toured Pizza Hut and got to make their own pizzas (a HUGE hit!) and on another day made their own ice cream sundaes. Today they visited a local buffet restaurant to see how the kitchens operate. I'm sure that was a lot of fun - I can't wait to hear about it. Emmelia loves to cook, so this unit was right up her alley.

Yeay! It's "just" pneumonia!

Good news on the biopsy front - no sign of malignancy! I was really worried about that possibility. The lab was also able to culture out a bacteria and test different antibiotics against it so that now the Deac has started on a course of what should be the correct medicine to finally treat this infection. Hopefully the follow-up CT scan in a few weeks will show marked improvement.

Speaking of improvement, here's some things I've done to help